I think the thing that scares me the most about this entire process of exploring my sexuality is that I might come face to face with a part of me that I don’t like at all.
Finding myself and my sexuality isn’t noble or right, it’s vain and selfish. I just moved into an apartment with my long term boyfriend, and I choose now to explore?
Sure this all started when I saw her, and there was a spark ignited, but he is not my boyfriend and he is not another woman so what does that mean?
I throw around terminology like pansexual and poly-amory, but maybe I’m just playing a game. I have too many cards in my hands and one day I will drop them all and lose them.