“There are days where I cannot find the sun even though it’s right outside my goddamn window”

“I think a lot about killing myself, not like a point on a map but rather like a glowing exit sign at a show that’s never been quite bad enough to make me want to leave. See, when I’m up I don’t kill myself because holy shit, there’s so much left to do! When I’m down I don’t kill myself because then the sadness would be over and the sadness is my old paint under the new, the sadness is the house fire or the broken shoulder: I’d still be me without it, but I’d be so boring.”

“This poem is called how to kill yourself without hurting anyone: don’t.”

"She made you want to live more than anything else, and now she makes you want to leave the world, because you’ve seen it."

"Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin. I see myself crushed by an endless succession of cars..
And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on.”

- Neil Hilborn

Now you read all of those beautiful Quotes by Neil Hilborn and now why I decided to draw a fanart of the man.

Page Updates

Hey guys! Just wanted to let you know I updated my page again and I have some new fun features! The last theme I had corrupted some of my posts so I had to change it. But I made sure this one still has that searchable tag option to help you find my specific posts more easily.

ANNNND I now have a nifty little “Submit Fan Art” button on my page! Thank you to cttcarts for teaching me how to do this. 

Now if you want to send me fan art you have the option of either doing what you have been doing by sending me the link whenever you’ve got something you’d like me to see OR you can click the button on my page and submit it directly to me :D Thanks everybody and happy navigating!


Neil Hilborn - “OCD” (Rustbelt 2013)

"She’d lay in bed and watch me turn the lights off and on, off and on… she’d close her eyes and imagine days and nights were passing in front of her."

Finally, finally, a high quality video of this poem.