I’m full of too much emotion. I feel like I burst with a single blow. I sink to the bottom instead of swimming right through. I wallow in any strenuous time I fall into instead of running right through it. I speak too much sometimes. I am always starving for a chance to experience. I starve to win. I just always want to win even though I rarely ever do. I’m just so damn ambitious but don’t have the patience to pull through. I put a finish line in my relationships. I just want to be better. I want to know what it feel like to be better. I speak of my struggles as if they have already ended. I know its still the damn beginning. I’m so full of life around those who I know want me around. It’s a fucking treasure when people know you and like you around. I’m so damn opinionated I just want them to think I’m more than a smart girl. I don’t even want to be seen as a girl half the time. I want to be treated as if I’m powerful and honorable. I want real respect. I want them to see past my gender. I don’t want to stand in their shadow. My life would hold no value to me if I did. I’m just full of too much emotion. A single word just tears right through. My own words tear right through. I hold so much bravery, power, strength, and heart but I don’t trust myself. I don’t love myself. I could’ve been better. I wanted to be better. At least I can become that better. That’s the only positivity in all this. That after years of wallowing and sinking I finally proved that I didn’t have to sink, I didn’t have to wallow. I still do sometimes but I know what I have. I know what I can be. I’m taking baby steps but I’m going to be there. I’m going to be what I want to be. That’s all that matters in the end.
SO I SAW AT THE BACKGROUND STUIDIES YOU DREW AND BEFORE I CLICKED ON THEM AT FIRST I WAS LIKE????? WHY DID SHE POST A COUPLE PHOTOGRAPHS WITH THE ART?? BUT THEN I CLICKED AND SAW THE LARGER VERSIONS. CASSANDRA I LEGIT THOUGHT THE TWO ON THE RIGHT WERE PHOTOS BEFORE I SAW THE LARGER VERSIONS. I'M FREAKIN SERIOUS, MAN. o.o ESPECIALLY THE BOTTOM RIGHT ONE?? DUDE YOUR ART IS GLORIOUS (*screeches*)