but i dont know what to do if i dont go with doctor

anonymous asked:

How do you think you've benefitted from living in a number of different countries & cultures? Do you ever wish you lived in just one place?

Living in different countries really opened my mind, i learned how to live in a country that is completely different from what we’re used to (for example in Guinea there were no water everyday and of course no internet hahaha) and tbh it was a shock for me when I moved in Canada because everything seemed so easy: like when you’re sick you just go to the doctor and the day after you’re better, when you’re bored you spend all the time on the internet and idk stuff like that ! I’ve learn so many things im really attached to some countries, I know i’ll go back there in the future because i dont want to forget how living there is.

And yeah sometimes, even more when I was a child, i wish i lived in only one country cause you know i dont have a “home”. Like some of you guys were raised and lived all your life in the same house, with the same friends and surrounded by your familly but not me. When people ask me where I come from I just answer France but tbh I don’t really feel French as I’ve never lived there. But I can’t say im malagasy cause i only lived in Madagascar only 6 years so yeah idk if you feel me

anonymous asked:

Yesterday I went to a party and got really drunk and someone drugged me and i got home and told my mom someone raped me but i cant remember any of it and i dont even know if its true cause the doctor said she couldnt tell even with the exam and my mom went back to the house and told the owner and her mom (to see if they knew something) and im scared that the girl will tell eveeybody bc i dont even know if its true. What do i do?

well you gotta tell your mom you basically lied because you don’t know whether it’s true or not. go talk to her or else she will tell more people and things might only get worse for you. i hope you’re okay xx

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anonymous asked:

You're simply in it for the health benefits and body. NOT the animals.

BECAUSE YOU KNOW ME AND MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING THING???? YOU DONT KNOW THAT WHENEVER SOMEONE THAT HAS NO IDEA IM VEGAN AND QUESTIONS IT I RANT ON ABOUT HOW ANIMALS ARE TREATED SO POORLY, I RANT ON EVERYDAY, IM CONSTANTLY EXPLAINING HOW ITS SO HORRIBLE THAT THE ANIMALS ARE TREATED THAT WAY. 

DONT COME ON MY BLOG AND TELL ME WHAT I AM OR AM NOT DOING YOU WEIRDO! Im sick of you people thinking you can just go around on anon being a little hk like get out of here on go live your life that is that boringyou need to go question others. 

Veganism isn’t about being perfect, it’s about the intention and how you can support the cause. I’m still education myself on it every day.

Get to the doctor mate you have a cold case of ignorantitis!

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO !!!!!!!!! I want to go on the pill and mum was like whatever but now she’s saying I shouldn’t and she thinks it’s the pill that gave her a cyst etc and then the hiv ? Cervical cancer shots and she’s like what’s the point etc but I’m the most paranoid person on the planet!!!!!! ALSO YO TOP IT OFF I am too scared to go to the doctor without mum so it’s like ??????????????????? Like she will let me do whatever but it’s like do I do either/both? I DONT KNOW!!!

honestly i need to go see a doctor when i get home and get my mental junk diagnosed because as much as i can identify a few symptoms, most of it is just vague feelings and an inability to actually function some days (e.g ive been laid in bed for an hour now knowing that im going to miss class and i cannot make myself get up).
i just want to know specifically what this mess is, i want to have it identified more so because having something named and identified makes it less scary for me than for any other reason honestly. i just need to do it in a way that my family never know because honestly i dont trust them not to just invalidate me endlessly.

fuck i dont know i just need to do something so the vague ‘oh my god i want to die’ feeling backs the heck off because that junk is draining. it should probably scare me too but whatever at this point.

mikasas-tickle-spot asked:

7, 42, 69, 72, 95

7) What’s your strangest talent?

I dont know omg i dont think i have one

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?

I do actually

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

who havent

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

I wouldnt tell people and i would quit my job, take my money and go meet all my friends before i die.

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

America so i can meet my friends

thanks! <3

Ok so after much prompting to try and make mom understand how I feel I have concluded that she will never understand a damn thing I say to her and instead repeat the phrase “go see a doctor” over and over until I want to throw the anger tin at her but dont because she’s not nearly worth it

A list of gems aka things mom said to me from this argument:

- sometimes I think you go on tumblr and you want to be special you want to be one of those people who are different all this asexual agender its just for attention

- you have no fucking idea mate if you had my childhood you would fucking break you dont know how easy you have it

-I had a daughter and one day youre agendet asexual where did she go? What happened to her?

- go talk to your friends or something theyre mentally ill

- I told you I’d go to the doctor with you!! (She didnt)

- what do you expect ME to do

- no [I say something] no [I say something else] no

My 16 yr old brother stepped in and defended me which is good because I was crying on the floor at the time

Basically mom ended the argument with the idea that I dont have a fucking clue, my problems arent nearly as bad as her childhood and she’s sick of hearing me selfishly talk about my feelings, that her problems were worse than mine and I would have broken so she’s somehow such a brave brave soul for getting up and providing for her children wow round of applause for the passive agressive defensive faux pagan who is periodically racist and generally hard-headed and assholeish good job in helping -82822%

But baby and I got more aquainted afterward. Nothing like a nice brick wall to better acquaint a kid and their baseball bat.

Also my little brother was v helpful shoutout to him for stepping in because mom actually listened to him

anonymous asked:

I had 3 anxiety attack today and i dont have anyone to tell this. I just want stop this and ive been thinking about dying and i dont know what to do

First off,  you should probably go to your room and destimulate yourself. So, just sit there and try to think about nothing (almost impossible, I know). Maybe play some music, lay on your bed and just focus on the beats.

Second, have you thought about going to see a doctor? It may help you a lot.

I hope you feel better, sweetie <3

~Lorelai

anonymous asked:

(bipolar 2 fyi) Im just feeling really weird at the moment I feel like im stuck inside my body like I wanna run or do something but my body is too exhausted to do it... its weird cause its like im tired but not? I feel disconnected from my brain, like im asleep while im awake, just like i dont know what im feeling.... I've been in one of the best moods ever for like a month now not crazy just SUPER up beat - but now its gone a bit weird I dont know whats going on

hey anon, 

the best advice i can give you is to go and talk with your doctor. if you are ever alarmed and confused by the symptoms of your disorder it’s always best to talk it out with your therapist or doctor. 

i can relate to this feeling with my own mania and i find that the best thing for me in these situations is to seek out help to help manage my moods and help me reconnect to the world that’s ‘slipping away’. 

i can offer you some tips on grounding, but i truly believe you’d be best helped by going to your doctor. Here are some exercises you can do that helps to keep you in the present grounding techniques.  Mental grounding exercises. Physical grounding exercises. Soothing grounding exercises.

How to tell someone about your mental health & interactions with others

stay safe, 

kei 

anonymous asked:

thank you so much!! im really sorry. i cant tell anyone i know about this. they'll call me crazy. you might call me crazy too but at least you're not my mother. im being haunted by something (a demon?). day in day out is utter torment. it steals my food, leaves actual bloody gashes in my arms, throws me off the bed in my sleep and whispers awful, AWFUL things in my ear. i dont know what to do. i think im sick. is it real? im so scared i feel like its gonna kill me i dont know what to do

oh gosh, nonnie. this sounds really serious. i cant say i experienced something like that because i didnt, so im not sure how to help you. have you tried contacting a doctor or something? if youre fearing for your life it might be good if you go to see a specialist. im really sorry i cant help you much and i wish i could. maybe someone from my followers has any suggestion about how to help? once again im really sorry that youre going through this and i hope itll get better soon

12/02/15

today was shit. i saw a doctor for a second opinion on my diagnosis and where i should be when i turn 18. she started talking about different hospitals and then said well why dont you just go home and i mean thats what i want but i want to go home able to manage which i know i cant do at the mo0ment and then i freaked out and shouted at her saying that i dont want to live if i have an eating disorder. she really just didnt understand and then i walked out. i was so close to going to my room and banging my head or tying a ligature but i didnt so i am really proud, i didnt end up in restraints and i didnt have an ingection :) i still feel crap now and there is a while left of the day but i managed :) i am baking later which should be fun so yeah :) hope everyone is well xx

anonymous asked:

I was doing well, but all of sudden I start eating a lot and gained more than a couple pounds. I hate this feeling, I just wanna feel skinny and beautiful again. Please give me some advice, I am truly desperate. I need your help

Oh dear, this sound just like me :( Im so sorry you are going through this. In my situation I developed bulimic tenancies which means i started to binge and purge, and binging lead to me gaining weight. What Im doing right now Is going to counseling and having regular doctor appointments, but this is because Im diagnosed with an eating disorder and I’m currently getting help. I dont know your situation but I promise you dont need to be skinny to feel beautiful. Hun, my advice to you is to please take care of yourself. You really deserve to feel beautiful and if you think you have disordered eating or a distorted view of yourself I want you to please tell someone. I really care about you and I know you dont want to eat and gain weight, but you really have too eat. I’m going through recovory right now so I know how it feels to not want to cooperate or get help for yourself, but if you become too desperate to become thinner you may hurt yourself. I want you to know that you can message me anytime you need too and I’ll be here for you!

anonymous asked:

70-74, 91-93

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

i dont really know. sometimes im nice but other times im super annoying and/or a jerk (i dont mean to be but sometimes it just happens…)

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

this situation would never happen to me for many reasons but i would save the dang dog

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) i would probably only tell a few people and make sure they dont tell anyone
b) relax. read all the books i can. i would not go to school lol. maybe do a few other crazy things ive wanted to do before (skydiving, bunjee jumping, etc)
c) honestly yes

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

trust

  • 74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

probably something from high school musical lol

  • 91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

gonna steal something from a text post i saw on here, but i would want the ability to change/control probability

  • 92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? 

tfios tour in nashville when the whole tfios cast was in the same room as me 

  • 93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

oh gosh i dont know. probably something embarrassing from elementary or middle school