I’m going on a semi-hiatus of sorts. I usually mobile blog but there are so many triggering posts about Ferguson, I’m on the brink of psychosis and I’ve been shaking and obsessing all day.
For those of you who don’t know my situation, I’m black and schizophrenic. That’s currently a double whammy for me as a potential victim of police brutality. I have to beg my parents to never call the cops on me of they need help with my psychosis because I just know I’ll be murdered. Each time I see a Ferguson post this paranoia is etched even deeper into my brain. My OCD and paranoid schizophrenia make it difficult for me to function in environments like this.
I understand the relevance and meaning of what is happening. I am not ignoring it by not posting it. I see it and I’m appalled, but I won’t continue to risk my sanity as I’ve been out of the hospital for almost a year (I was in and out all 2013) and I’d like to stay out.
So if you have a problem with this, keep it to yourself. If you don’t, thank you for understanding and stay woke for me if you can.
I’ll keep answering asks if I get any and if I find that I’m okay to use a computer, I’ll post and queue. I’ll be back within the week.