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I need one of these so badly!

So, guys. From today on, for 3 months, I think I'll be less active, a lot more busy, and I will have to unfollow people.

I’m going back to my boarding school tomorrow, and essentially, I’ll be a lot more busy with a lot of stuff, really, and which I think I mentioned some here (which I’m also essentially repeating what I said back there but anyway).

The internet there is absolute shit, it takes so much time to load everything, it hinders and slows me down to check tumblr a lot, so it would still take even more than now check it, even if I was following a lot less blogs than now.

And the worst part is that, no matter what, I’ll always have to go offline at 10/11 PM. ‘BedRoom time’.

And there is no internet in the rooms.

So. Yeah.

…But for a while, at least, I still might be a bit active. I mean, I will always be, dur, but more than I said I won’t be. You know why?


Alright. Time to start and finish packing within….4 hours. With not sleeping. Fuck. I am so screwed.

/irresponsible fuck

but i had important personal stuff to take care of and i’ll have to do all of this now fuck fuck fuck uck


/sighs and tiredlyprepareseverything

Okay, so. Arrived well. Already exhausted.

Re-meeting so many people and saying to them the same “Hey, how have you been? Had a good holiday? Good!” gets pretty tiring after a while.

Not to mention I had no sleep, but that’s my fault. And starting today, especially with my “brockwoodian” routine and daily life, I’ll need a good, regular sleeping schedule. Starting today. /o/

So, yeah. Like I’ve said many times before, and will say it again so everyone knows - I’ll won’t be /so/ active after a while (still clearly active and present and everything, but not so much, I guess? IDK. i think i’ll be busy, but i hope i have time for all of the things i do online and all), unfollow people, I’ll have to go off much sooner, etc, etc, etc. You’ve heard it all before.

But right now, I guess I’m a bit excited for this term. I got a lot of stuff to do, indeed. Somehow I always feel like repeating myself and say what I have to do, but I won’t bother you guys with the details at the moment. c:

I mean, I guess having a fuller day, stuff to do, proper sleep, and people to be with is what you would call…life…? I admit I am just getting a bit tired of the boring, repetitive, vicious-cicly daily routine I have when I’m on holidays. So I’m excited to actually do stuff here. 



I better go get some rest now.




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ok goodnight

personal update ramble after the break read only if you care or are friends i often chat with or something like that

if not, GOODNIGHT! \o\ <3

tomorrow is going to be busy…!

a lot of appointments, not to mention having to pack up everything to go back to brockwood on friday, and i’m seriously concerned about the weight, since i bought a lot clothes while i was here, and the airline i’m going with has a smaller weight limit than the one i came with. shit, how will this work out..? ;A;

but ah well. we’ll see.

it’s kinda good i’m going back, honestly. going to have to break the horrible sleeping pattern, and not doing anything all day. having a daily structure and schedule and going back to actually doing productive things. i just don’t know if i’ll be able to exercise, since, you know


i mean shit, one of our colleagues said it’s too cold to make snow. everything is ice.

oh man, i am going to need this new warm clothes so much.

i hate winter. ;__;

but anyway, yeah. also there’s going to be that horrid bed/room time which i mention too many times. after 10PM, on most days, i can’t be online, since i have to go back to my room, and there’s no internet there. i apologize to my friends which i chat with which are in farther timezones. it’ll be a lot more difficult to do so, both with that, and that i’m pretty sure i’ll be a lot busier with a lot of stuff. (things i mentioned months ago, probably around august/september about being excited going back to brockwood and what i was going to do and THERE WERE SO MANY THINS AGH)


it’s that i have a lot of things to improve on myself, and brockwood is a good place to do that. and i’ll have to balance actual life with computer/online stuff. i just hope i can do that. there’s just not enough time and energy to do and indulge in everything. there has to be a balance.

but yeah. that’s happening.

also idk if i’m doing this too much but i don’t care. thank you, silky, for being amazing and such a fun, sweet person and often cheering me up even when you didn’t know you were doing that. thank you. ;-; <3 (ijustreallyhopewecanstillchatfromtimetotimeafterthis. okaythisseemobsessivenowbutreallythankyoualotyou’rewonderfulokay<3)

and thanks to my followers for putting up with me. i’ve been a pretty bipolar, complicated and anxious mess lately, i know. but thanks. <3

so yeah

i better go sleep now, tomorrow will be busy and exhausting and kinda stressful, i can already feel it. TuT”

goodnight, everyone

sleep well when you do, and sweet dreams.