personal update ramble after the break read only if you care or are friends i often chat with or something like that
if not, GOODNIGHT! \o\ <3
tomorrow is going to be busy…!
a lot of appointments, not to mention having to pack up everything to go back to brockwood on friday, and i’m seriously concerned about the weight, since i bought a lot clothes while i was here, and the airline i’m going with has a smaller weight limit than the one i came with. shit, how will this work out..? ;A;
but ah well. we’ll see.
it’s kinda good i’m going back, honestly. going to have to break the horrible sleeping pattern, and not doing anything all day. having a daily structure and schedule and going back to actually doing productive things. i just don’t know if i’ll be able to exercise, since, you know
IT’S NEGATIVE TEMPERATURES BACK THERE IN ENGLAND
i mean shit, one of our colleagues said it’s too cold to make snow. everything is ice.
oh man, i am going to need this new warm clothes so much.
i hate winter. ;__;
but anyway, yeah. also there’s going to be that horrid bed/room time which i mention too many times. after 10PM, on most days, i can’t be online, since i have to go back to my room, and there’s no internet there. i apologize to my friends which i chat with which are in farther timezones. it’ll be a lot more difficult to do so, both with that, and that i’m pretty sure i’ll be a lot busier with a lot of stuff. (things i mentioned months ago, probably around august/september about being excited going back to brockwood and what i was going to do and THERE WERE SO MANY THINS AGH)
I’M SORRRYYY ;A;
it’s that i have a lot of things to improve on myself, and brockwood is a good place to do that. and i’ll have to balance actual life with computer/online stuff. i just hope i can do that. there’s just not enough time and energy to do and indulge in everything. there has to be a balance.
but yeah. that’s happening.
also idk if i’m doing this too much but i don’t care. thank you, silky, for being amazing and such a fun, sweet person and often cheering me up even when you didn’t know you were doing that. thank you. ;-; <3 (ijustreallyhopewecanstillchatfromtimetotimeafterthis. okaythisseemobsessivenowbutreallythankyoualotyou’rewonderfulokay<3)
and thanks to my followers for putting up with me. i’ve been a pretty bipolar, complicated and anxious mess lately, i know. but thanks. <3
i better go sleep now, tomorrow will be busy and exhausting and kinda stressful, i can already feel it. TuT”
sleep well when you do, and sweet dreams.