the shit called me to ask if im coming to the christmas party and im like well idk since they dont even tell me to come to work and she goes “okay nvm then okay bye *hangs up*
im so sick of it all. like im not too borhtered by it but its lie fuck off really all i am is for others conceniieve.christmas fucking party… yeah like what chances in reality that i get to interact with others anyways. im just so scarrd by everything and i told my self just dont cry over others always hurting your feeling and you tell yourself you;ll be okay. its just not true. i fucing hate life i fucking hate it to the abslute core. every day i gotta wake up and take a moment to let it seep in that i have to endure another horredous day.