(Quality Kinda Shitty but it’s a start.)
I just finished reading a book. Now, that may not be a big feat but to me.. it is. I have a large dislike for reading. I never read a single required book in High School or College. I really don’t like to read Fiction.
I forced myself to read at age 25. I read 15 books in a matter of 2 years. My goal was 100 books in two years but I guess I had to start somewhere. Chuck Klostermann, Charles Bukowksi and Neal Boortz of all people got me interested in reading again. Still, it’s annoying to sit down and read.
The book I just finished is called “Meet your Happy Chemicals”. James Altucher discussed it on his show about two weeks ago and every day since has mentioned it in some way on his show. This book is exactly what I needed at the exact time I needed it.
I started a new practice last night:
10 Good Choices I Made Today.
I am not an indecisive decision maker. I am a rash decision maker. I make a decision and typically fall apart when I realize how awful it was. I don’t want to think about it and so I just ignore it. Which has led me to this summer and the belief that I just make terrible decisions. I need a reminder to myself that I do make good decisions.
These were mine from yesterday:
1.I went on my full 3 mile walk.
I always have to get myself motivated to walk. Sometimes half way through I am just like ok maybe a mile is enough. It’s not. I am trying to lose another 20 lbs on top of the 10 I’ve already lost.
2. Got Dressed
After my shower I didn’t just slip back into pj’s. I actually put clothes on that I could wear in front of strangers. Hurray!
3. I showered.
The days that I don’t take a walk. I also don’t shower. I am either too depressed or lazy. It’s a bad habit. I don’t do it for multiple days but on the days I don’t it’s just not good.
4.Stuck to my diet
Do you know how annoying it is to eat protein all the time? I am often to lazy or depressed to cook. I try and look for something to eat and get frustrated. I have been sticking to my diet but that’s because instead of eating I’ll just sleep,
5. I didn’t take my Adderall after 7pm.
My original goal 3 days ago was to not take it after 5 pm. That is really hard for me to do. The weirdest thing about it is that by 10pm I want to go to sleep and I can’t. Instead of doing something with all the motivation and amphetamines in my system I just want to sleep. I end up spending 5 hours trying to sleep. It sucks. 7pm is better than 8pm. This will be a gradual process.
6. Finished putting up all of my paintings and marker art I have done in the past year.
My room looks a little crazy. If it were in a movie you would swear some schizo, manic depressive, ocd person lived in my room. It’s just for the time being. I want to take pictures. Well I took pictures and posted it up in a Facebook group I am in. I got an overwhelming response and I am soo happy. Thanks Everyone.
7.Left the paper at the store.
Arts and Craft stores are my crack. I consistently have to have my hands busy. I paint or draw when watching tv. I went to Jo Ann Fabrics to get an Exacto knife and sticky putty stuff for my pictures. I also thought it was a great idea to pick up some $3 15 sheets of watercolor paper. The best thing about lines is you get a second to think about what you are buying. I put the paper back.
8.I only bought Ice Cream
Kroger’s was right next door to Jo Ann’s. I wanted something sweet and yummy. I have fallen in love with Turkey Hill Mint Chocolate Chip. The chunks of chips are small and don’t get stuck to your teeth or gums. It makes it much more pleasant to eat. I wanted more than Ice Cream but I went straight for the cash register instead. Yea!
9.I finished “Meet Your Happy Chemicals”.
I emailed the author who is amazing. Her response to my questions helped me to finish the book. I am very glad I did. This idea came from the last chapter.
10. Emailed Mom and Dad
I have an appointment with my doctor on the 25th. My therapist and I decided it was a good idea to include my parents at the appointment. I have a feeling my doctor will be able to explain what we are doing a lot better than myself. I need my parents to understand. I finally emailed and invited them.
10 more good choices to make today!! What will I do?