Tonight we’re fading fast
I just want to make this last
If I could say the things that I want to say
I’d find a way to make you stay
He took my hand and dragged me down the street. Under the fluorescent lights he looked angelic and beautiful. Every step we took was a second spent perfectly. He looked back and frowned.
“I just want to make tonight last more than anything.” Hugging seemed to be the right gesture to make for the circumstance. He is leaving tomorrow and I’ve tried to ignore the fact of it. However, the feelings that are boiling inside of me are so intense that the only thing that seems right at the moment is him.
He let go of me and the warmth from him started to fade. Suddenly all I felt was emptiness. It felt as if he had already left when in reality he was standing not even 2 feet from me. I couldn’t even begin to imagine what I will feel when he is actually gone.
“I’m going to miss you so much.”
Go ahead rip my heart out
That’s what love’s all about
I want you to want me this way
I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don’t feel a thing
If you don’t know
Let me go
“There’s nothing we can do. Just live in the moment and stop worrying about what will happen. Just promise me that whatever happens tomorrow, you will not shed one tear.” He said with sympathy. I couldn’t promise him that.
“Do you promise?” I shook my head. I couldn’t, someone who I care a lot about is leaving for almost a year and there’s nothing I can do about it.
“I’m being serious. Promise?”
Finally, the only thing that will satisfy him is to say I promise. So I did. The only thing is, is that I can’t keep the promise and I think that is what’s going to break me.
“I think we should stop doing what we’re doing. I really can’t do this anymore. Long distance isn’t cute. It’s hell. I know you have faith in this but I don’t think it will work.” The hurt that was in his eyes couldn’t compare to what he was feeling inside.
“So you’re just going to stop caring?” Letting him go isn’t easy.
“I don’t know. I’m not sure what to feel anymore and it’s all too much. I’m sorry.” With that I walked away. He was standing there and all I could do is cry. I had already broken his promise.
SORRY THIS WAS ALL OVER THE PLACE AND IT WAS HORRIBLE AND THERE’S PROBABLY TYPOS BUT HEY ITS SOMETHING BUT ANYWAY FEEDBACK ??? I DON’T REALLY LIKE IT BUT I MEAN ITS WHATEVER :-)