This is a small fanfic type thing to honor the Blood legacy by Blackcatsims (I LOVE YOU NEVER STOP BEING AMAZING). I would like to think that before Zara committed suicide that she wrote a letter to her son Jaden because well he is amazing and who wouldnt love that male. So enjoy :D
To my dearest Jaden,
You must be all grown up and at least 18 now. I bet you are handsome just like your father was. I want to say that I’m sorry. I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you first walked, talked and started school. I love you more than I can say. You are the gift I leave for this world, proof of the love that your Father and I shared. A love so powerful that words cannot express it. YOU Jaden, you are my highest achievement.
I can see you sitting there shaking your head asking yourself how I could have left you if were so important to me. I don’t expect you to forgive me but please at least let me tell you my side of the story.
I wasn’t born to the Fae like my brother, your uncle Tristan, was. I was human, soft squishy pink little … human. I hated myself. I knew that I was never meant to live like that; a fragile, mortal shell. Once I was old enough I set out to earn my wings. I was successful, but I realise now that it came with a price.
I became Zara the Elemental; an Ice Faerie. I was so happy, until I began noticing a few small … let’s call them, repercussions. I would find myself standing in the freezer, just trying to cool off; the heat was stifling to the point I thought I would die. Around this time I found sculpting large slabs of ice as a way to comfort myself. Perhaps that was the start of it all; I felt myself drifting away from my family. I felt like everything was freezing over … then I met your father, Apollo.
The moment I first saw him my heart skipped a beat. I felt alive for the first time since earning my wings. Just by looking at him my whole world would brighten. He was a Fire elemental, the polar opposite of myself; so warm and alive…so bright. He was everything that I missed from the world and I wanted him all to myself. Every day that we spent together I could feel the ice lifting from my heart. He made me feel … normal. I though I had finally found true happiness.
Your father was obsessed with his power and he wanted to learn as much as he could about his magic. He encouraged me to learn with him, but I see now that we were learning for different reasons; he wanted fire to bend to him, rather than letting himself bend with the fire.
Apollo had been sneaking off to go and practice on his own and once I found out I begged him to stop. I knew it was dangerous. He agreed to let up, but he went back in secret … one last time. That was the night that I learnt that I was pregnant with you. It was also the night your father died.
They made me come to the warehouse to identify him. My world froze. My heart stopped beating as I looked down at him … what was left of him. I went numb and the world around me did too.
I want you to understand; I didn’t leave because I didn’t love you. I left because my heart and soul died that night. The bonds that tied us together in life had been cut. I had to follow him. Life without him was … impossible. Before it was time for me to leave I wanted to bring my last gift into this world; you. One day I hope you find the love that we had. It is my greatest wish for you.
Please understand that I knew that Tristan and Artio would raise you to be a wonderful person. Tristan always had such a love for life, he was always so happy and carefree. Artio is the same. I envy them for their happiness but I also knew that you would be far happier with them than you ever would be with me. You are happy aren’t you Jaden? I pray you were never without hugs and kisses. Gods, I pray it to be true.
You, Jaden, are my legacy. You come from a proud Fire Fae and a selfish Ice Queen. You have the power within you to do whatever you wish with your life. Know that I have and will always be watching over you. I may not have raised you but I hope that you think of your father and I at times. I’m sorry that I wasn’t there. I hope one day you can forgive me.
Love always and forever,