Its hard to know whether to laugh or cry at the neurotypicals who think that mental illness is only legit if you spend all your time and energy trying to get over it/heal yourself/whatever

Like, no, thats not how it works. Every persons situation differs and sometimes the best “healing” for a person is taking personal “down time,” staying in a safe space for a while, taking a mental break, recharging batteries, etc…and its OKAY if this takes more than a day, or a week, or a month…

Dont let anybody tell you that youre not doing a good enough job at overcoming your mental situation, and especially dont let them tell you that you are not moving fast enough. We all make progress at our own pace, and sometimes we slip up and down again in the process…and that, too, is okay. Take the time you need, do what is best for you, and fuck the people in your life who disrespect your choices and/or pressure you to do “what they would do.” And, most of all, dont let anybody tell you that you arent trying.

Anxiety feels like
Being too scared to live
And too scared to die
It’s like standing on a trail
With enormous mountains looming in front of you
And a deep gorge behind you
It doesn’t matter which step you take
Because they are all equally terrifying
But do not forget
Only one will kill you
—  - D.D.
You’ve become so damaged that when someone tries to give you what you deserve, you have no fucking idea how to respond.
If your illness is not the idealized “pretty” kind, if it involves vivid hallucinations and psychotic episodes and not showering for weeks and crying on the bus, you still deserve all the love and care in the world. No matter what your symptoms are, you are worthy of life.
Laying on a hospital table
Staring up at the ceiling
While a doctor is stitching up my mistakes
I hear him receive a call about the next girl
Who tried to fight pain with pain
And as we pass each other in the hallway
She is crying
I am crying
And I swear
There is not a single word in the dictionary to describe
How heartbreaking it was
To see my own suffering
Mirrored in her eyes
—  - D.D.
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“I think bipolar is like being in a boat on an ocean by yourself. There’s other people but they’re all on their own boats doing their own things but you’re on this boat on this ocean and in one hand you hold the chain to an anchor and in the other hand you hold the strings to a kite and the kite is the mania and the anchor is the depression and your job is to keep the kite from flying you away and keep the anchor from bringing you all the way down to the bottom of the ocean and so being bipolar is this fine balancing act of keeping yourself afloat in the boat with the kite strings and with the anchor and you gotta hold on really strong and really tight.” [Up/ Down]