went out tonight and it

was pretty darn good, i’m still crunk, i was with BB Gun, aka johnny B. goode, aka, killer B, aka B-atrix potter, aka bed bath and B-ond, amongst many other names, but but i won’t get into those and Colin Spence, aka david C-man, aka Concord, aka Condom, aka Con artist, aka Colon, aka Continuous list of other nicknames but i won’t get into those either, it was good and again, still crunk, they both have glorious bee to the logs, so you should definitely follow them because they’re both beautiful and also they’re lovely people.

My dream last night.

I was on set doing some extra work, but then got talking to the director, and he gave me a speaking role, hurrah! Despite him saying he didn’t think I was that good, he was going to take a chance on me because I fit the part. So that was good. I got my own dressing room instead of a communal extra’s dressing room and all sorts.

Then it was the next day and I was back doing extra work. Was given a bikini to wear, and was changing into it in the toilets when I realised I hadn’t shaved. Shock horror, how was this happened?! Got in trouble for that.

Then I was modelling, god know’s how I got that job given my height, and was modelling a fur coat and the photographer kept getting annoyed at how short my legs were.

Then I’m in Concrete, and I’m in the corridor-y bit where the benches are, and was running down it, got to the end and saw Big G kissing a girl, then ran in the opposite direction, but there were people either side of me throwing confetti and streamers and stuff over me as I ran away, and it turned out they had set up, and filmed it, for a short movie thing that they needed to make? Bizarre.

No plans for today.

My sister is coming down though, which I really can’t be arsed with, as she is in a really happy, excited mood and I just find that the worst kind of mood to be around when I’m down.

I’m getting really nervous for my interview, which I don’t like, because I never used to get nervous for interviews, and the woman said it’s just really an informal chat going into my application in a bit more detail, so I’m worried being nervous for such an informal thing is going to ruin my chances, and also the fact I don’t have a copy of my application to read over to remind myself of what I said is going to make it hard for me to go into it in more detail.

I’m trying not to worry about it until at least Monday but bllleeeaarrghhh.


First of all, there was a big area in the town centre cordoned off with big black boards, with The Lion King musical posters all over the outside of it, and a girl was standing with a megaphone announcing that it would be on at The Sands Centre this year. I was really excited at the prospect of this. She then announced it would be an interactive audience experience, which put me off the idea, because I had no idea how that would work in the Sands.

 Next thing I was at home, and the cordoned off area was now next door to my house, and they said they were building a special venue there for the production as they had realised it wouldn’t work at The Sands. I could spy into the secret area from my bathroom window and it looked exciting. 

 Then, all of a sudden, instead of them building a venue for the play, they were building a Seaworld park, and I could see from my bathroom window that they were keeping whale’s in pop up swimming pools which were far too small enclosure’s for them, and every time anyone came to investigate they hid the animals underground?!

 Next bit is completely different. I’m at a puppy party with my sister and brother in law and their puppies, but all the other puppies kept attacking me! Like they were just zooming onto every part of me like magnets! I was batting them away and then everyone was annoyed with me for hurting the dogs despite the fact they were mauling every part of me!

 Finally, I was trapped in this bizarre, alternate universe, where these bizarre creature things lived. One part of it was like the estate I live on, but all new like it was when it was first built, but there were petrol pumps outside every house, and the whole neighbourhood was inhabited by chinese people who all seemed to be growing rice in their gardens. There was another bit that was a big building that was all blue and cushiony inside. I eventually managed to escape the universe by clinging onto one of the creatures that was leaving, or something like that. Can’t fully remember that bit.

 Oh, there was also a part where I was driving a car and was stuck in traffic at the bottom of a hill and then Fearne Cotton was there telling me there had been an accident at the top of the hill, and I needed to come and help the injured but to brace myself because they were missing limbs and all sorts but when I got to the top of hill everyone was fine. 

 And that was it.

Today sucks.

So I had a massive argument with my mum today, and I ended up doing something really silly, that I totally regret now, but what’s done is done. Even though we’ve sort of made up I still feel really bad and regretful about the whole thing and can’t stop beating myself up about it and just wishing it hadn’t happened.

And then my sister got some really bad news. It’s not mine to share and/or post about but I hope she is ok. 

Afternoon with Tilp was lovely :)

We went for coffee and exchanged christmas gifts. Was rather chuffed with my giant wine glass indeed! That will be getting used a lot!

 Reminisced about the old days of GCSEs, complained about how shit being a grown up is and discussed dating.

 After realising we had sat in Starbucks for 2 hours and only ordered two drinks we went to Debenhams to look for Santa so I could see if he was hot, but he wasn’t there, so got a drink there and I let her play on my iPhone, and we completed the idiot test!