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Can I Trust You?

Warnings: Sad

A/N: All characters from the potterverse belong to J.K. Rowling.

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“Y/N would you please come back here!” you heard Neville call, but you continued storming away from him tears filling your eyes. You didn’t want to be alone with Neville or near Neville for that matter. You were always insecure from the moment that you and Neville started dating. You never believed in love. Your father had left your mother when you were younger, and your mother never fully recovered. She constantly cursed your father, and all men. She convinced you that all men were horrible, cruel people that wanted nothing to do with love. They only wanted to get in your pants and leave. You were in front of the water; the waves were crashing down at your feet (x). You heard Neville come up behind you, touching your shoulder lightly, but you moved away.

“Y/N what did I say that is making you act like this. All I said was-“ you cut him off.

“Don’t say it again,” you yelled out at the sea not turning to face him. He was playing with your heart for sex. Why hadn’t you listened to your mother and denied his advances? Neville turned you to face him, despite you wanting to look away from him.  

“Y/N I don’t know why you find it so hard to believe that I,” he paused, selecting his words carefully. “care about you.” You forced yourself to look into his eyes. His eyes looked just as pained as yours if not more so.  You never told anyone about your home life, but when you looked in Neville’s eyes, you couldn’t refuse him.

“When I was three my father left us,” you began. “Since then I’ve been convinced that all men are unkind, selfish jerks. Then you show up, and you are so kind to me Neville.  You confuse me because you go against everything I thought men were. You can actually-” You couldn’t bring yourself to say the words. You were relieved when you felt his arms wrap around you in reassurance. He understood you now.

“I’m not going to abandon you Y/N. I lo-“ Neville pauses to correct himself. “like you a lot. I’ll wait for you to be ready for those three little words. I had no idea.” You relaxed as you felt his hands lightly stroke your hair, soothing you. Your fear from earlier diminished. In time, Neville could help you learn to trust again.

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You and your friends had been in the tent all week, and now you were getting sick of it. Harry was still lost in how to proceed, you were doing everything you could to keep your mind off George, Hermione was enraptured by Dumbledore’s gift, and Ron was constantly tinkering with the radio. You were all were a bit stir crazy, and it showed.

“Honestly, if he doesn’t stop tampering with that radio, I’m going to break the thing,” Harry huffed. Hermione simply sighed. You couldn’t help but notice that since the ministry trip, Hermione had been more sympathetic toward Ron. She worked hard making a dinner he could at the very least tolerate, and barely argued with Ron when he yelled at Harry.

“Harry, don’t get angry with him it soothes him,” Hermione pleaded. “Let me wear the locket for awhile. You always get angry when you wear it for more than two hours.” When Harry turned to face the two of you, you gasped. Harry’s normal, bright green eyes were dark, and you held back the urge to shriek in fright.  Hermione and Harry had been passing the locket between themselves, and they looked exhausted. Every time you volunteered to wear the locket, the two shrugged you off saying you had already been through enough pain. Perhaps they were right, but that didn’t mean you didn’t wish to assist them.

“How about I wear it this time?” you asked. “It’s been a week, and I feel fine. It’s as if you two think not wearing the locket allows me to avoid the sadness I have for George.” Harry and Hermione looked at each other then back at you. You didn’t want to sound mean to them, but they needed to stop trying to protect you. They brought you on this mission to help them not to be a burden to them.

“I guess you’re right Y/N,” Harry admitted as he slid the necklace off. He was just about to hand it to you when, you heard Ron call out.

“Harry, Hermione, Y/N, come quickly!” The three of you raced back to the tent, scared for what could possibly be going on. When the three of you arrived, you saw Ron was smiling.

“Ron, why did you make us run over here if nothing is wrong?” Hermione crossed her arms and you followed suit. Harry simply glared at him.

“Guys, I got the radio to work,” Ron smiled. “It took me a week’s worth of guessing, but I finally cracked it.” The four of you were silent as you listened to the crisp voices coming out from the previously static filled radio.

“And now I’m joined by my lovely co-hosts Rapier and Razor welcome.” You instantly recognized the voice; it was Lee Jordan.

“Rapier and I are glad that you asked us to be on Potterwatch, River. However, I could’ve had a more creative name you know,” you wanted to melt right there. That voice belonged to the love of your life, George. Though his voice sounded groggy and tired, you couldn’t ignore how relaxed he sounded compared to the last time you talked to him. His voice was light, no longer burdened with hate. Even as the podcast reported on all the sad events in the wizarding community, you couldn’t stop smiling as you listened to George’s are care-free voice.

“Is there anyone you want to make a shout out to before we sign off?” Lee asked. There was a long pause as you held your breath.

“To my love who is far away, stay safe and come back to me.”  Your heart dropped as you sunk to the floor. Even from miles away, George would always have a tight hold on your heartstrings.      

5

❀ Hermione Granger

It was Hermione. But she didn’t look like Hermione at all. She had done something with her hair; it was no longer bushy but sleek and shiny, and twisted up into an elegant knot at the back of her head. She was wearing robes made of a floaty, periwinkle-blue material, and she was holding herself differently, somehow - or maybe it was merely the absence of the twenty or so books she usually had slung over her back.

modern dumbledore’s army (insp.)

honoring their past gay professor albus dumbledore who was killed in street fight, these teens call themselves “dumbledore’s army.” living in an oppressive society where the lgbt community is not accepted, they fight for equal rights and start rebellions. each member plays a vital role in keeping this organization afloat - without one another, they could not make an impact they do today.

harry potter - openly gay leader. wanted by the fuzz. in love with draco malfoy. creator of the d.a. 

ron weasley -  the right-hand man. strategist. supporter. the glue. the muscle.

hermione granger - the brain. deceptive to the other side. focused. determined.

neville longbottom - the heart. d.a’s recruiter. dedicated. lover.

luna lovegood -  the spirit. openly bisexual. optimistic. hopeful. 

ginny weasley - the rebel. outspoken. aggressive. on the front line. 

draco malfoy - the wildcard. the double agent - truly on the side of the d.a. in love with harry potter. 

A summary of Harry Potter:

Hermione:  Don’t do the thing Harry!

Ron:  Hey Harry, lets do the thing!

Snape:  Don’t do the thing you dunderhead ball of deaf ignorance.

McGonagall:  Mr Potter, don’t you dare do the thing.

Dumbledore:  Hmmm…  Perhaps you shouldn’t do the thing, but here are some tools, explained in the most vague possible way, to get the thing done, I’m counting on you.

Hagrid:  *Gives all the details about the thing*  Shouldn’t have said that.  ‘Arry don’t do the thing.

Sirius:  James, I mean Harry, back in my school days with James, your dad, we always did the thing.

Remus:  Sirius, perhaps you shouldn’t encourage him, but if you’re going to, here’s a map to help you do the thing.

Draco:  Potter can’t possibly accomplish the thing.  Prat.

Luna:  We must go do the thing from the side while riding nargles to freedom.

Voldemort:  THERE IS NO THING BUT POWER AND THOSE TO WEAK TO ACCEPT IT.

Harry:  I‘m doing the thing!  I’m doing IT RIGHT NOW!  CONSIDER THE THING DONE.

I am DONE. I am SO DONE.

I have tried for MONTHS not to freak out about this, but it has gotten to the point now where I can’t handle seeing all these posts anymore. I want to address a few points. I know I am going to have people freaking out at me and giving me the exact same arguments they always do, but I don’t really care.

I’m going to address a few points that I think are VITAL for people to understand. I’m tired of seeing all the Snape vs. James shit.. or anything hating on Snape. You don’t have to like his character, but my god, you don’t need to DEGRADE his character development and how BEAUTIFULLY written he was. Have you ever thought that is WHY people like him?? People don’t like him cause he was a bully, or because of the mistakes he made. They like him for all the POSITIVE things he did. I’m going to get to the important points now.

1. YOU CAN LIKE JAMES POTTER AND SEVERUS SNAPE AT THE SAME TIME FOR DIFFERENT REASONS. WHY DOES THERE HAVE TO BE A HUGE WAR WITH SIDES??

I LOVE both these characters. My opinions on Snape have nothing to do with “me hating James.” Don’t even try to pull that crap on me. James Potter and Severus Snape BOTH made mistakes. James bullied the hell out of Snape, and Snape bullied the hell out of his students. No one can say one was better than the other, I don’t care what you say. Snape made worse DECISIONS than James, but people don’t even consider his background about WHY he made the decisions he did or HOW he was even feeling. I do not tolerate bullying, I do not tolerate being prejudice, but my god, I understand this thing called FORGIVENESS. You are all able to forgive James, but not Snape? James selflessly gave up his life to protect his wife and son. Snape ALSO gave up the rest of his life to protect a kid he HATED. He did it to redeem himself for Lily, to apologize, because he felt GUILTY. He wanted to do what was RIGHT because he didn’t do what was right before.

2. IF SNAPE WAS A BAD PERSON AT HEART, DEEP DOWN, HE WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO CAST A PATRONUS OR EVEN REMOTELY FEEL GUILTY ABOUT WHAT HE DID WHEN JOINING THE DEATH EATERS.

I don’t know HOW much more I can stress this. Just because you have bullied, or made really bad decisions, it doesn’t make you a BAD person forever. You can’t let a few actions define you. If that’s the case, James is also a bad person for BULLYING SNAPE ALL THROUGH SCHOOL. James is FAR from a bad person. Snape should have found a different coping mechanism rather than bully his students. It was wrong, SO WRONG. People are still going to attack me and say that everything he did was unforgivable, but I cannot stress enough how I DON’T SUPPORT THE BAD THINGS HE DID.

3. I do NOT think Snape’s “romantic feelings” for Lily were healthy, but YOU CAN’T EVEN PROVE THEY WERE ROMANTIC. IT WAS HEAVILY IMPLIED, BUT PLEASE DO NOT USE THAT AS YOUR MAIN ARGUMENT ABOUT WHY SNAPE WAS “CREEPY” FOR “OBSESSING OVER LILY.” HE LOVED HER, AND LOVE CAN BE IN MULTIPLE FORMS. I SUPPORT THEIR FRIENDSHIP, NOT THE IDEA OF THEM BEING ROMANTIC.

What people also fail to realize is that Snape obsessed over things with Lily because he felt GUILTY for what he had done, not because she “rejected him.” Do you really think SEVERUS SNAPE of all people would really let a crush rejecting him bother him that much? If he doesn’t care about the feelings of his students while bullying them or anything like that, he is not going to care about some crush. He cared because she was his BEST FRIEND and he BETRAYED HER. Guilt makes you obsess when you feel like you can’t fix something. There is a reason he gave up his life to protect Harry. TO MAKE UP FOR HIS MISTAKES.

4. Lily Potter would have never been friends with Severus in the first place if she THOUGHT HE WAS TRULY A BAD PERSON.

This just shows how misunderstood and awful his past was. Lily eventually became fed up, but anyone would. She was completely justified to stop being his friend, and he deserved to lose her friendship for the things he has done.That is final.

5. Draco called people mudbloods, was a death eater, and bullied people around him.. and you forgive him so easily. Everyone loves him so much. Think about how hypocritical that is.

I UNDERSTAND that Snape willingly joined the Death Eaters and Draco didn’t, but please hear me out. Draco still said all the racial slurs and such that Snape did to Lily, and he ran around with a similar crowd like Snape did. He bullied people all the time too, and he only cared about himself.. but Draco did redeem himself, and you all love him. You forgave him. Snape did all these positive things to try and make up for the things he did, yet you can’t let go of his past? If you can let go of Draco’s past and the things he CHOSE to do, why can’t you do the same for Snape? 

6. Harry named his kid after Snape because he realized the sacrifices he made for him so he could even HAVE THIS FUTURE AND HAVE THIS CHILD.. not because he personally LIKED him. He was honoring him for the GOOD THINGS he did, not the mistakes he made.

Harry can forgive Snape, so why can’t you?

I just feel like SO many people don’t understand what forgiveness is. Everyone makes mistakes. Snape is NOT a real person, he is a fictional character. PLEASE stop sending DEATH THREATS to people who don’t agree with you. You can like James and Severus. This doesn’t have to be some huge competition. It is getting old and ridiculous. The reason people like Snape is because he is complex. Can’t you think about the BRAVE and WONDERFULthings Snape did for the story and for Harry, rather than the mistakes he made? You don’t have to support the bad things he did to think he is a good character. I certainly don’t.

I just feel like people miss the main point of Snape’s character. Snape shows what CAN happen if you are bullied, have bad influences surrounding you, have been hurt, and feel guilty. He turned his character around, why isn’t that something to praise? If he was only a bully, didn’t help Harry, and was STILL a death eater.. then I get why people shouldn’t like him.. but he actually ended up being a person who made a HUGE difference and HELPED. You don’t have to say that Snape is a good person, you don’t have to respect him or support what he did, but will you please respect the people that like his character development? That is seriously all I am asking.

I have never seen so much hate towards one fictional character before. It is getting old, so please stop.

(from: http://www.buzzfeed.com/maggyvaneijk/i-just-really-miss-fred#.kgXL6MbGA)

Did you ever stop to think that perhaps Voldemort was looking to make another Horcrux? (Which he DID end up doing, but unintentionally.) What better “murder” to use than the kid who was “prophesied” to kill you? THAT’s why he used the killing curse (or tried to) instead of chucking baby Harry out the window.