beckyb1329 asked:

For the person who asked about lamotrogine, I've been taking it since I was 10 and I'm 14 now. I haven't had a seizure for 3 years and that was when I decided I would stop taking my medicine. It works extremely well, as far as I can tell, though. It's stopping me from having seizures, so it can't be too bad, right? (:

Thank you, I will pass it on :D

Question time :D

ciaooo bella, bung your url in my search box - there’s some questions with your name on! ;D - generaldeliciousness


1. Always post the rules

2. Answer questions that are given to you and then post 11 new ones

3. Tag 11 people

4. Let them know you tagged them

5. Don’t change the rules


1. Give me your 3 best life-tips.

- Never try to be anyone but yourself, If you’re not happy about something, try to change it, happiness is a choice :)

2. What is the most exciting or interesting thing you’ve ever learned?  Where did you learn it?

- Oh gosh, well I can’t think of anything offhand, most of the stuff I learn at uni is exciting and interesting, but the majority of interesting and exciting things I learn come from tumblr! Recently the best thing I learned was that Days of Our Lives is a real show and not just something Friends made up.

3. Who is/was your favourite teacher and why?

- In school my favourite teacher was my sociology teacher because she was really kind and nice to everyone, she was completely crazy and made me cry with laughter many times, and she was a brilliant teacher and most of my class got A’s in the exams. 

4. If you could be an animal for 48 hours a month, what animal would it be? (and why - don’t skimp on the answers kiddies)

- Ima have to say a dog who lived with a nice family! Cos you get to sleep whenever you want, eat loads, get spoiled by your family, and your biggest worries would be like ‘oh no my friend stole my bone’ or ‘there’s a rat in that barn which I can’t catch’ I just think it would be awesome.

5. Why are trees?

- Trees are because we need to breathe and we can build tree houses in them and climb them and they are just amazing and multi purpose

6. What is the thing that has made you saddest in the last year?  (If you don’t want to answer this one, that’s ok)

- My dog, Jack, passed away; he was ten or eleven and he’d had cancer previously, but then his hips gave way and he couldn’t walk any more. He was the sweetest, most caring dog ever, and he was always happy. I’d had him since I was six/seven and I loved him very very much. Another sad thing was I left home, I cried for days afterwards.

7. What is the thing that has made you happiest in the last year? (You HAVE to answer this one :P )

- Hehe, well two things, my sisters started talking to each other again after about 18 months of hating each other, and now we all get to spend Christmas together as a family! Also I moved in with my boyfriend after two years of long distance.

8. If you could write yourself into any movie franchise or TV series, which would it be?  (And, given the state of many of the favourites, how long do you think you’d survive?)

- I think it would have to be Harry Potter or Supernatural. I’ve loved HP since I was a little kid, and yknow who WOULDNT want to go to Hogwarts. I’d just like to be an average Hogwarts student, and if it was after the second war, I think I’d survive ok. On spn, would depend if I starred in the first 5 minutes or not xD I probably wouldn’t last that long but maybe I could come back as a ghost or something.

9. Please give me one word I have to work into my NaNoWriMo fic :D

- snickerdoodles!

10. What is your proudest moment, ever?

-  I only have about 3 REALLY proud moments, so imma say last March when I got some of my A-level results and they were FARFAR better than I expected.

11. Why are you so excellent?

- Umumumumum *panics* I think because I try really hard to be myself, and I try hard to be nice to people always because they have hard lives too. I want to change the world for the better but I doubt that will happen :p.

Now here are my questions!!

1. When you were a little kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

2. Do you have a best friend? If you do, tell me why you love them so much.

3. What is one thing you are extremely grateful for? 

4. If you could travel to any time period, past or future, where would you go and why?

5. What is your favourite season?

6. Do you ever wan to get married and/or have kids?

7. What was the last thing that made you REALLY happy?

8. If you could have any job in the world, regardless or qualifications needed, salary, or the cost of achieving that job, what would it be? 

9. If you could hug any celebrity, who would it be and why?

10. Do you like cheese?

11. Why did you decide to get a tumblr?

Dear _____________,

I don’t want compliments. I don’t want you trying to make me happy. I won’t be happy until I leave this family or die. Truthfully, I don’t want to be happy. You say you’ll stick around and be happy about it. No, you won’t. No one does. Ever. No one really loves me; it’s impossible to keep caring about me — being in my life is so stressful, eventually you have to stop caring, so you don’t become just like me. To not become disorder ridden. Depressed, bipolar, anxiety, paranoia, so on and so forth. Basically, Borderline Personality Disorder. No, I wouldn’t wish my life on anyone. Not even my worst enemy. This is a terrible life. I can’t wait for it to end. I’m too sad. Too angry. Too hateful and uncared for. Too unloved and yet too loving. It gets tiring — not receiving back what you work so hard to give out. I don’t know how long I can do it anymore. It gets me down. Will someone just kill me?


dear _____________,

im tired
-of trying
-of lying
-of smiling
-of living and not dying.
i know i wont live long. eventually i will be killed. by myself. or someone else. or God. i dont know. i can i will get drunk then cut and bleed to death. meh. i have suicidal thoughts. big deal. i wont do anything about it unless it gets really bad again. hopefully it wont. but, hell, who knows? i dont know. its likely to. if i die, dont cry. im worth no tears. and its just the truth. sorry. just, unless you really care, dont. but very few do. very few. i love you all, but theres no point in living if so few love me back. i wish i could see a point. im sorry. im so sorry. i wish i didnt have to be sad. i wish i could just always be happy. im good at faking it, eh? i can put on a smile; i can even put it in my eyes. im only 14! why am i so good at this!? i shouldnt be! have i really been unhappy so long? im just gonna take it out of my eyes, off my lips. but, so many people wont believe me. im the happiest damn person they know! NO! im way sadder than i appear. truthfully, i could cry now. im sorry. i wish i could do something to hide it. still, i just cant. im so sorry, so so so sorry.

i love you…


sorry it’s in all lower case, but that’s the way I wrote it in class today. And I basically just type it straight from my paper.

Dear _____________,

I am sad. Today more than normal. I just dont see a point in breathing. Apparently, by body doesnt either. I feel like my diaphragm isnt even working completely. I dont want to breathe anyway. My lungs could collapse for all I care. I would rather you just slit my throat, it’d be faster. But, whatever. Just kill me somehow. Technically, this isnt a suicidal thought. Or is it? If I want someone else to kill me? Im not sure. If it is, oh well. Suicidal thoughts are easy for me. Violent thoughts, period are. Its crazy simple. I should work on that. I like them, though. Pain is what keeps me alive. It gives me the slight sanity I still have; there isnt much there. It makes me want to laugh, thinking about my lack of sanity. My sanity will never be completely back.