They said love is stupid. Love is shit. Love is just a word. But for me love is something that is worth dying for. Love is something we really need and love is something which everyone of us crave to have it.
I’m in a middle of nowhere, laying down on my bed then suddenly I’ve heard a music. That music push me to reminisce. And everything turned into a dark, creepy night.
I was sitting on the canteen with my friends. They are eating and chatting. I was just there staring blankly and unconsciousness, then suddenly a guy attract my sparkling eyes and my heart beats fast. I was wondering why my heart beats fast? Why am I feeling this? Is there something wrong? And then my mouth had its own way to speak out “He’s so handsome” and everyone stared at me and I was just like OMG! What I have said? Oh shit. This can’t be happen. And then I started to walk and go to my room.
Time pass by and I don’t know how everything started, changed and end. But I surely know that the guy whom I admired the most has already a partner in life and the bad news is that a friend of mine is on that place. But they broke up just a couple of months. What a sad story right? Things get complicated but my love for him never changed instead it comes to a deep kind of love. I never stop liking him. I know his story. I know why he always late in school. I know everything about him. I know this is not love this is “ Obsession” actually. I don’t know. I really don’t know how it started. I feel like everything is in magic. I don’t know how and what I like about him. It’s just like everything is unplanned and unexpected. All I know is that I like him not because his handsome but I like him for no reason.
Here comes the most awaited event, the Juniors and Seniors Promenade. Our class adviser announced it to our class. Everyone is excited and they start to talk about their clothes and more. Me? I was just quiet on that day, thinking should I go to Prom? I’m too lazy to celebrate it. I like to go but I have no excitement to feel for. No more expectations, I said it to myself. Practice where on going. We are much organized. I am belong to a dis cotillion and he is in regodon de honor. And then I started to like him again and again. I saw him everyday. I keep on following him by using my eyes which everyone noticed me. Ugh! My secrets has finally revealed. I always stared at him, I look so stupid but I can’t handle my feelings. I just really like him. There are times that my eyes and his eyes collide and push me to not put out my eyes on him but I am the one who move it away to ease the pain I’m feeling on that day.
The most awaited night, JS prom. When I arrived on the venue everyone is beautiful and handsome wearing their pink clothes (for juniors) and blue clothes for (seniors). When the program is about to start I saw him with his sister. I was just smiling on that night. After the program we eat our dinner and the most awaited the party. We cooperate to each other we create big circles on the center and start to dance. I noticed that he’s just there sitting on the corner, alone. I sited and stared at him. I don’t know if he also staring at me. But as usual I’m just assuming again. Everyone shout and go back to their seats when the music turned into sweet. I know everyone is expecting that someone will ask them to dance and one of that. But the first sweet dance done but no one ask me too. And I said to myself “see? No more expectations” I started to party with the people and I sited again. Too tired. Another sweet music played and I was chatting with someone then they started to shout and I was wondering why. Then suddenly when I look into my left I was just like Oh My God! Is this real? Am I dreaming? Can someone slap me? But how? Is this a plan? And his hand lend to me with his smile on his face. I don’t know what to do. Am I going to dance with him? Is this real? And then I grabbed it. I put my hand on his shoulder and his hand putting in my waist. The music stopped. And everyone shouted. It was just only 15 second I think? We go back to our seats. I was slight disappointed because the music stopped and happy because he ask me to dance. And everything is not just ended on that. Another last sweet dance is played. I was just sitting again and chatting. They started to shout again with matching punching to my arm and then I was wondering again. And again when I look into my left he is there. He is totally there walking towards me. He lend his hand again to ask me to dance. They keep on shouting loudly and I accept his offer. Music were playing, “Forever I’ll be yours…” Again I put my hands to his shoulder and he put his hand on my waist. We dance slowly and dance with the beat of the song. His face is too close to me. He’s really smiling, the smile that makes him more handsome and makes me comfortable too. We talked a little. I was very happy on that night if only I could pause that moment and stay forever with him I was surely one of the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. We didn’t notice that we are the only one who’s dancing on the center and everyone is staring at us with a smile on their faces. And then we cut our dance because my mom called me to go home. I smiled at him.
After that moment I was very super mega ultra so much happy. My heart beats to fast and my face is blushing. I just can’t believe that everything is not a dream. It is real. I thought my last prom will end up unhappy again but that thoughts were vanished by him. I’ll never forget that night. A night to remember. A night to most treasure for and a night of full of happiness which no one can beat it. I was very happy. No words can describe how I’m happy right now though he don’t even like me I am happy seeing him everyday with a smile on his face. I am happy seeing him when I passed by in their room. I am happy when we’ve just passed by to each other without greeting. I am happy when he’s not late. I am happy seeing him listening to his teachers and taking notes. I am happy even though he don’t even dance every Friday. I am happy for everything he had. And I am happy if you like someone else. Things will get better. I would like to tell to him that I am always here. I can be his friend. A shoulder to cry too. I’m just always here. And now that I will leave this school EQC everything will not end. I’ll never forget him. Please do the same to me. He’ll forever in my heart and in my mind. Lets make the most of it.
And then I opened my eyes. A brighter light comes to me. Another life to live for. Another chance to make everything fine. And other blessing from God. I smiled and said “I’ll stop searching, I start waiting”.