I'm moving on...
Its still getting harder, a bit harder everyday. Because with every new day, its just a reminder that you’re really gone, you’re never coming back. That hurts more than anything. I’ve learned to not expect to hear from you, when my phone goes off… as much as my heart wants it to be you, my mind tells me how much you hurt me, and how its best if you don’t call or text me. I know I deserve so much better, but that still doesn’t keep me from missing you. I ask myself over and over, everyday, if i’m ever going to find someone like you, and truth is.. I can’t quite anwser that yet. I compare every new guy I meet to you, and none of them compare. I don’t know if I’ll ever be as close to any of them, as I was with you. You were my bestfriend, my other half, my everything.. And you let me down. I never planned on you changing your mind about us, and it hurts so much to think that I’ll never be good enough for you. We were once so perfect, and we had it all figured out, then suddenly, you changed your mind faster than I change clothes. And I can’t explain the pain I’ve been going through these past 2 months without you, to anyone. I don’t like talking about it because I don’t want anyone to know how much you hurt me. And how hurt I still am by you, how lonely and afraid I am. I don’t want people to see me weak. I don’t want you to see how broken I am.
But I am slowly moving on, I’m starting to realize that I’ll never find anyone if I keep wondering why I wasn’t good enough for you anymore. If I just keep my mind focused on you, wondering if I could have made you stay, I know I won’t find anyone. No guy wants a girl whose hung up on her ex.. So I’m moving on. I smile a lot more than I use to, and when I laugh, I’m not faking it anymore. I’m on the road to happiness, and it feels good. But I still think about you, sometimes I often wonder if you still think about me. And if the things that remind me of you, remind you of me. I hope you never forget me, and always remember me as the one who got away, because I promise you, you will never find another girl like me. Just remember that. In the back of your head, remember that I was there, and I waited for you to come back, and you didn’t. I’m long gone now, and I can’t wait until the day that none of this hurts me anymore, I can’t wait to be over you, and thats what I’m staying strong and living for. ~
Goodbye. All we have is memories now.
We’re strangers with memories.