“Let it drain you of your all. Let it cling onto your back and weigh you down into eventual nothingness. Let it kill you and let it devour your remains. For all things will kill you, both slowly and fastly, but it’s much better to be killed by a lover.”
alright, i’m just gonna post it. here’s the final paper i did for one of my classes. (it’s on dropbox but you don’t need an account to view it.) it’s on sexual orientation and gender and merthur fic. and it’s a little bit of a feminist rant.
important note: a lot of this essay talks about heterosexual women as the readers/writers of fic. i didn’t wanna focus on any specific sexual orientation in that way, but my teacher told me to narrow it down to one. and most of the research already done on fanfiction is (sadly, not surprisingly) about heterosexual women. so, yeah, forgive me for not really focusing on the queer community and for having to “assume” all these authors/readers and heterosexual. it irked me, too. but i did do this for a grade, so making my professor happy was my number one priority here!
less of an important note: yeah, i analyzed one of my own fics. wanna fight about it? (it was the most uncomfortable, introspective thing i’ve ever done and i do not recommend it.)
Can I just point out that Leon was probably appointed as a knight by Uther, Gwaine and Lancelot really joined Arthur’s side due to being friends with Merlin and Elyan and Percival “signed up” because of their connection to Gwen and Lancelot respectively?
Arthur wasn’t exaggerating when he said that Merlin was the only friend he had: He wasn’t really friends with anyone else during his life.
Merlin tread carefully. “And you’ve decided to change your view of magic? Just like that?”
Arthur shook his head. “No, not just like that. I’ve thought about it. I’ve thought about it until I can’t think about it any longer. It’s been in the forefront of my mind every waking moment of the day, going over my life with the knowledge that Emrys has been a part of it. I owe this man my entire kingdom.”
Merlin chuckled. “I wouldn’t be too sure about that.”
“Why not? Camelot would be nothing without him. I’d be dead. You’d be dead.”
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