Ah, that is… I know a lot of people got upset with me for that, and quite understandably, but I don’t think many of them really knew what I was trying to do, so I suppose an explanation is in order.
You see, Monobear had already stated that the only way to get off the island was to take part in his game of mutual killing. Thus, the only way to make progress towards the preservation of these imperceptibly beautifully talented people was to kickstart such a game. It sounds harsh, but the only way for anyone to continue to live was for someone to die.
But everyone was reluctant to make that first move, and understandably. After all, it’s a terrible feeling to think “I have to kill someone in order to live”, or even worse, to think “I must become a murderer”. It’s a scary thought! And no one was willing to step forward, you see, so I knew something had to be done.
I couldn’t risk being the murderer myself. With my luck, it would only lead to someone else being accused and, as per Monobear’s rules, everyone else dying as a result. And even so, someone as lowly and unworthy as myself would have no place extinguishing such a bright, shining, talented hope in the first place. So someone else had to be the murderer. And, as circumstances would have it, Hanamura-kun was already on the edge of becoming that person. He just needed… a nudge, that’s all. A nudge in the right direction.
So I told him to kill me. We set it up perfectly - he would be the murderer and I would be the victim. After all, I have no right living alongside these talented people, and certainly no right to remain alive in their place! I’d be the perfect victim - it’s no more than I deserve, really! I gave Hanamura-kun all the incentive he needed - I think if he knew I was planning his side of the story too, he wouldn’t have gone along with it, so I made sure he thought he was doing what he planned to do, so I let him think I was planning to kill someone and then he’d be justified in killing me, and I worked out the details, like overloading the breakers and making sure I’d be in the right position for him to kill me.
But of course, any plan made by someone as foolish as me was sure to go awry, and with my luck the way it was, of course I wouldn’t succeed. I hadn’t counted on Togami-kun being so dedicated with his vow to protect everyone, and I certainly didn’t plan on him dying in my place. I suppose I should be… thankful? That he died in my stead? But truly, to lose someone with such great talent as him while someone as worthless as me continues to remain alive… It’s almost despair-inducing.
I can only hope that the game of mutual killing finally beginning for real would be enough to spark the greatest hope possible from my classmates! After all, only in the darkest of despair can the shining light of hope become as bright as a beacon! I can count on them, that shining talent of Hope’s Peak Academy, to overcome this despair and become the greatest hope imaginable! Ahaha!