I’m a Jamaican girl of African/Chinese descent living in China, and let me tell you… I’ve been on the receiving end of a host of irritating comments from people back home (In JA). “Do you eat dog?”, “So… is your vagina diagonal (apparently bc I’m mixed, not fully Chinese)?”, “Yeah you’re definitely Asian, you have no ass”, “Oh it’s a black people thing, you wouldn’t understand…”

Now, back home most Chinese people are very very united, the families know each other and get together for important holidays or smaller activities like badminton games etc. My family was never a part of that, since my dad, though Chinese, is Rastafarian and my mom is Black. I was also very aware of the fact that I looked rather different from fully-Chinese families. And while at school I was being called “Chiney gyal” and made to feel like I wasn’t a regular Jamaican, at home I was being taught NOTHING about that side of myself. As I got older I began to deny my Chinese heritage, if only to get people to shut up about it. A small part of me was also disappointed that I wasn’t actually connected to those roots, and decided to deny them altogether.  

Anyhow, last year I moved to China to start university. I was kinda excited to come here, thinking maybe I would fit in a little better than I did back home. Boy, was I ever WRONG. Most foreigners who’ve been to China know, the locals STARE at you incessantly, like you’re some kind of zoo animal. Most are fascinated by anyone who looks so different, since their population is mostly Han people, or so I’ve read, but some of them really look down on anyone with darker skin. Anyways, I basically get called African here, I don’t even bother telling the few English speakers I’ve come across that I’m actually Jamaican and half-Chinese (funny how I wanted to clarify this time around, huh?).

As it turns out, I probably won’t be fully accepted anywhere. But realising this has made me decide that it doesn’t make me an incomplete person and that what I really need is to accept myself. It took me a while, but I’m glad I have. It’s not easy to erase the insecurities I’ve harboured over the years, but little by little I’m working on it. 

I don’t need other people assigning stereotypical characteristics to me, nor do I need validation from others to decide what race I do or do not belong to. I am both Chinese and Black and I will never deny any part of my heritage just to fit in again. 


@the people who’ve asked me the question far too many times: “ching chong” means i’m a fucking racist in douchebag.

sincerely, a viet-american girl who is super done with your bs.

tumblr // ig

Bi, sex worker, mixed Thai + white. I spent a lot of time trying to figure out where I belong across multiple marginalized communities, and I’m still working on it. But it’s so much better once you learn to be unapologetic about who you are. All my other angry Asian girls, you’re gorgeous and strong and wonderful. Keep rockin and don’t let anyone give you shit.


apparently it’s asian face appreciation day lol

i just wanted to post a pic of myself c:

half chinese and proud as fuck

// i used to hate being asian bc people would mock me, saying shit like “chinese japanese dirty knees, look at these!” or ask me if i liked egg rolls and other annoying things, i used to believe them but fuck that, being asian is awesome :) i am proud to be chinese and i always will be. // 

okay so I should have used a better selfie but i give no craps

I am SICK of being called a freshy. I literally don’t care if you mean it as a joke or whatever. What does that even mean? What gives people the right to be derogatory towards me for enjoying bollywood dance, or enjoying movies from my home country, or speaking my mother tongue?

so happy Asian Face Appreciation Day (AFAD) to all my fellow asians, here is to embracing your culture and not being shamed for it!

Okay so did I understand right that I should be ashamed and embarassed because I took part in Asianinvasion? I should be ashamed and embarassed because I wanted to show myself, be proud of who I am and also make people realize that racism is bad? I should really be ashamed and embarassed, wow.

I guess some people just didn’t understand that asianinvasion wasn’t there to overshadow blackout. Blackout is still blackout and it was huge thing.
I read something about “asian face appreciation day “today, and only now. Just because I heard of asianinvasion earlier, doesn’t mean I have to be ashamed for wanting to raise awareness.

If we did wrong, say so. Don’t go all apeshit on people for mistakes. Don’t be rude because I saw a lot of that. Don’t go insulting and making fun of people for speaking about this, taking part in it or just being supportive of it.