Ripped Up Mistakes.
Ariel sat on her bed with torn pages infront of her. She had just ripped out every page from her journal out of anger and guilt. Everything she wrote, all her feelings, were spread out on the bed. Her eyes were stained with tears, she had been crying all night. Her father and brother were sleeping, and Ariel sat on her bed looking over her mistakes. She picked up one particular page, it was ripped on the bottom, but it was easy to read. Ariel gazed over the paper tears falling onto the journal entry. She read it aloud holding back tears,
Journal Entry #18
I had the same feeling again today. The feeling where you know you are in love. The feeling of mockingjays in your stomach, flying around. Giving you the feeling of nervousness, of enjoyment, happiness. It’s bliss. He is so sweet, the way he smiles at me, the way we hug. And when we kiss fireworks go off. I cant wrap my finger around the fact, i am dating the victor i always liked. He makes me smile, i haven’t been this happy after mother passed. I couldnt be any happier, im glad i met him. He is 17 and I’m 15 and in love! I never thought this would happen, but it has, and im glad. And that feeling i get, the fireworks, my heart bursting with love. I actually love him.
Ariel let out another cry. It was winter when she wrote this, Ariel looked out the window, feeling the summer breeze. She was so stupid back then, why did she make the mistake of giving her heart away.
The boy, soon after the journal entry, cheated on her with her friend. Ariel dumped the boy and her friend. Ariel wasnt supicious about her boyfriend cheating, she was stupid. She was too in love to see the obvious. Ariel crumbled up the journal entry and threw it out the open window. She made a mistake dating that boy. She made a mistake befriending that girl. Not again.
Ariel promised herself she wouldn’t be that stupid. If she was to be reaped, Ariel wont win for the the victor she liked. No. Ariel would win for herself. To show her father she is strong, to show her ex boyfriend she doesnt need him in her life. Ariel doesnt need a boy to feel happy. She wont let someone break her heart. Not again.