I was walking to the shuttle this morning to go to class. I sent a good morning text and began to wonder if anyone thinks of me this way. If that when they see something that reminds them of me they smile. Or even the opposite, like I’ve placed a bad taste in their mouths.
I remembered how I spoke on not wasting energy on conversations with other people unless I think it would be worth something. It really hit me how no one reaches out to me (rarely) and exchanges energy with me. Do I portray myself in a manner where you also think that I’m not worth wasting energy on? Do you think I don’t have anything worth hearing to say? Or have I not given you enough information to lead you into the right direction for a conversation to be worth something.
I think I have been so absorbed in myself for so long that I looked at not responding to conversations to other people as a waste of energy. On the other side of the street they may think of me as the same way.
I want to change that. I have gotten over expending love despite who you are and what you are. But I think the next step is to be open to become receptive to what people have to say.