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“My mom put me in dance class when I was a kid, I got into a lot of fights.”

future ryan telling past ryan “he’ll never talk to you again and you’ll miss his voice so much. sometimes you’ll call him just to hear his voice in the answering machine. he’ll write songs about you- you’ll know which ones they are. the songs, they almost always say he misses you but he’ll always avoid saying your name in interviews- you’ll know. you’ll watch so many of them. it’s going to hurt. my god is it going to hurt. but he’s happy. he’s so, so happy without you.”

I don’t know about you but I have this headcanon that as a child Tadashi did something really stupid and got Hiro hurt (or maybe he screamed at him or somethin and caused Hiro to cry and he wouldn’t talk to Tadashi for days and he just felt so bad that he promised himself never again) and is now completely and utterly afraid of upsetting his little brother.

Just a thought. Because Tadashi has literally never raised his voice towards Hiro. Not even during the getaway scene (It was more like Tadashi was projecting his voice to be heard rather than to yell at Hiro). 

Put the Car in Drive

The prompt: Overwhelmed with over flipping the switch and causing damage, Caroline leaves Mystic Falls and finds herself feeling lost and alone. She calls Klaus. How does it go down? What does she say? 

“You have exactly two minutes to tell me about being the bad guy before I hang up,” she muttered, “Go.”

She could feel his smirk through the phone.

“Caroline,” Klaus drawled in his thick British accent, “how lovely to hear from you.”

After their last scandalous passionate encounter, Caroline had sworn to herself that she’d de-Klaus her life—an Original Hybrid detox, if you will—and remove both him, and her feelings for him, from her life forever. When he’d promised never to return; she’d promised (silently) never to talk to him, never to think of him again. Unfortunately for her, she found this forever vow was hard impossible to preserve…at least where he was concerned.

And as a result, here she was: Parked in the middle of Nowhere Tennessee, her head pressed against the steering wheel. A bag of open Doritos resting in her lap. On the phone…with Klaus Mikaelson.

Caroline hated it! She despised herself for her weakness, for her Achilles heel. But Klaus? Oh…Klaus loved every minute of it. No—wait—that didn’t sound right. He didn’t just love it…he relished in it. Smug bastard.

“Is this interest personal or academic?”

Eyes closed, Caroline sighed. “I didn’t know who else to call…”

Hearing her dejected tone, that lackluster inflection, Klaus dropped his wry pretense. His voice low and gentle, he replied, “You called the right person, love.”

“Now,” he continued, his attitude a little probing, “What do you want to know?”

Caroline jolted back in the driver’s seat, allowing her head to rest comfortably against the headrest. Muting the radio, which seemed to be blaring music from Sad FM, she threw her arms over her head and spoke, unloading words in an agitated, need-to-vent manner.

“Here’s the thing…My mom’s dead. I don’t know if you know that or not, but my mom died. From cancer. Not from a supernatural curse, a rogue vampire, or a werewolf bite, but from cancer. Freaking brain cancer. Isn’t that ridiculous? To die of something so human—in Mystic Falls?”

Caroline hiccupped here, either to prevent herself from laughing or crying. She wasn’t sure which one.

“Anyways, I couldn’t deal with it. I just couldn’t. I couldn’t fucking breathe, Klaus. I couldn’t fucking breathe!” She paused, licking her lips. “So, I shut it off. I shut off my humanity…and I gave into my darkness. The one temptation I swore to myself, and to you, that held no charms for me.” She scoffed, obviously disgusted with herself. “I gave in!”

“And…?” Klaus asked with hesitation.

“It was amazing! It was awful!” Caroline checked herself. “I—I was awful,” she corrected. “Though I still controlled the bloodlust, I was a heartless and vindictive bitch. I terrorized my friends, my town, and perfect strangers who offended me for literally no reason.”

Klaus chuckled softly. Though he said nothing, it was obvious he took some odd delight in hearing her tale. And something else, too. What was it? Satisfaction? Pleasure? Pride? That’s it—that’s what it was. A part of him was proud.

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Humanity’s wings

Sam keeps a close watch on Cas for the first few days after his fall. There is so much that the former angel needs to learn. It’s staggering how much knowledge one takes for granted. But Sam is patient, and without skipping a beat, he begins to teach Cas the basics of humanity. With Sam’s guidance, Cas learns about using the toilet and the shower, shaving and brushing his teeth. Sam teaches him about healthy food, and how to tell when fruit has gone bad or meat is too burnt to eat.

Sam helps Cas through the first nights of humanity. At first, Cas is terrified of going to sleep without someone present. He doesn’t understand why anyone would leave a vessel without a consciousness to protect it. That’s what it feels like, he says, like abandoning a vessel. So Sam promises to watch over him while he sleeps, and when he wakes up disoriented and confused Sam helps him adjust to his physical form again. Cas never talks about it, but Sam thinks he dreams of heaven.

It could easily have been awkward, teaching a grown man how to button his shirt or tie his shoes, but Cas isn’t aware of the usual social customs, and Sam makes sure not to mock any of the questions Cas asks. He answers each of them patiently and as precisely as he can, whether they’re practical questions (like how to make a bed, or use cutlery) or emotional ones (such as why his chest contracts when looking at pictures of kittens).

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What not to do:

1) Don’t guilt trip me. I’ll never treat you the same. 

2) Don’t talk shit about me if you care. I promise you’ll never hear from me again. 

3) Don’t pressure me into uncomfortable situations… “But how do I know if you’re uncomfortable or not?” You ask.

4) Don’t manipulate me. 

5) Don’t let your ego think you have an influence over my feelings. Theres way more pieces to my emotional breakdowns than you.

Lies (Part 5)

*NOT MY GIF*


 

PART 1

PART 2

PART 3

PART 4

You told me you were coming back                                                                
Promised it was real and I believed that
But if I fall for it again
I will be a fool
If our love is at the end
Then why do I still want you?
But I guess I got no valentine
Send me roses I just let ‘em die
I was crazy thinking you were mine
It was all just a lie

I looked down at the neatly written lyrics jotted on the paper before me in my handwriting. Andy had always talked about how writing songs is like therapy and I never really understood until now. Though I doubt that the song I had written would ever reach the light of day, I was still getting my emotions out. They had festered inside me for too long.

Its been two months and nothings changed; I’ve had no contact with Andy and instead have pushed myself into my work. At the moment I’m the Manager of PVRIS (pronounced like Paris) a new Electro-Rock band but I’m slowly getting tired of the same old thing but I’m also scared that if I quit I’ll have nothing to occupy my thoughts and I’ll slip back into the darkness I was in when Andy first left.

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anonymous asked:

I feel like Koujaku and Mizuki kinda had an "experimental fling" where they both tried certain *things* with each other and promised to never speak of it again. But they both still do it often. B)

B) Oh I can totally see that, my sweet anon~

Koujaku and Mizuki are just chilling in Dry Juice after hours, enjoying a drink or two, talking about whatever comes to mind. Then, Koujaku casually sort of mentions how he finds Mizuki attractive -maybe when Mizuki talks about an ex or when talking about Mizuki’s haircut-, but, upon seeing Mizuki’s curious glance, Koujaku just back pedals out of that. He stammers as he explains that he meant it in a more platonic way since he finds women attractive only. But, Koujaku’s heart beats faster when Mizuki smiles and thanks him anyway. Koujaku tries his best to bury the strange, or at least what he considers strange, feelings toward Mizuki, but he has trouble keeping up with the conversation and instead focuses on Mizuki’s face and body; he notices the way Mizuki lips move as he talks, the way Mizuki gulps his drink and his throat moves as he swallows the liquid, the way Mizuki’s arm flexes when he demonstrates something without his jacket, and he notices just how much he enjoys Mizuki’s company.

By the end of the night, Mizuki comments just how flushed Koujaku is, which Koujaku blames on the drinks he had, but, before Mizuki leaves, Koujaku stops him and out of the blue kisses Mizuki. It was more of a sudden impulse, all the feelings that Koujaku had buried inside of himself- his plain attraction to his friend, his male friend- just exploded and everything within him just screamed to kiss Mizuki. Mizuki was not, as Koujaku expected, angry, but more surprised and confused, but he decided to try it out, and he kissed Koujaku back, full force. They both ended up sleeping together, and while Koujaku begged Mizuki to forget about it, more due his conflicting emotions due to the revisit to his sexuality, they would end up sleeping together once in a while. B)

anonymous asked:

Why do you think we fall for people we can never be with? Because it sucks and hurts a lot. Like I don't know what to do with myself, and I'm not talking about some celebrity crush or anything. What kind of joke is this honestly?

oh babe sometimes it’s the right person but wrong time and other times they’re the love of our life and we’re just not theirs. there’s no helping it & i’m sorry ur going thru that rn but u will get over them one day i promise and u’ll feel so free and happy again 

anonymous asked:

1: promise me that when you feel like you're at your lowest you'll remember that you so fucking far from being alone and talk to someone, anyone it doesn't have to be me, just someone that'll remind you that there are plenty more sunny days for you to enjoy and more concerts to attend and that you have people, like this best friend of yours I see you talk about that makes you smile and wants to see you happy. 2: promise me you'll never, ever, ever lose your faith. No matter how hard the -

it’s one in the morning and i took a break from reading my book i can’t put down, and i go on tumblr before i’m going to try to fall asleep again to see this.
i promise.

after reading a piece i’d written about people not accepting the fact that i’m asexual, my friend sent me this text:

“I’m sorry if I’ve ever made you feel uncomfortable while talking about boys or asking random questions. I promise I’ll never ask you a question you are not comfortable with. I don’t want you to ever feel like it’s weird to be asexual or you to think that we think you’re a prude or that we think it’s just a phase or whatever. We’re not judging you at all. You be you. You embrace your individuality and your asexual-ness. You perfect the way you are and I’m sorry once again if I’ve ever made you feel bad about it. I love you so much and I never want to hurt you or make you feel bad about yourself.”

i cannot express how happy and relieved i felt when i read this. i’m so glad to have a friend who can accept me exactly the way i am.

Michael Clifford Never Be Alone Chapter 5

That night I get no sleep. I can’t just bail on meeting them at the airport can I? I promised them I’d be there, and I want to see them. The only thing stopping me is facing Michael, how am I supposed to act towards him? I hate that he didn’t just stay to talk about it, but then again we’re talking about Michael.

It’s 5am and I am rushing to the car as I need to be at the airport to say goodbye to them, I am exhausted from the lack of sleep but I’ll try to get some when I’m back.

I am there only 30 minutes later and I try to look for the gate where they have to be when I notice him with his messy blue hair and my hair starts racing. As I approach them Michael notices me and I can just see in his face that this is going to be the most awkward acquantaince ever.

“I’m here guys!” I annouce once I’m fully at the group.

“Good! I thought you weren’t going to come!” Ashton says

“I’m not going to see you for three freaking months, of course I’m going to see you before you leave” I laugh.

“We don’t have long before we have to board though” Luke says and looks at Michael.

“Yeah, Lindy, can I talk to you?” Michael stutters and I feel the anxiety bubbling up in me as I nod. We walk a bit away from the guys to sit on some seats.

“I… I just want to apologize for what I did yesterday” He begins

“I’m really confused Michael, I thought you only thought of us as friends?“ I ask

"I do!” Michael says louder, “Well, I thought I did” he whispers after that

"Michael what are you sayi-“ I start but get interrupted by a loud voice annoucing that their flight is boarding.

"I’m so sorry” Michael whispers and hugs me tight before he leaves to the gate.

“No Michael! You can’t just leave it like this?!” I yell after him but he doesn’t listen and disappears as the other guys watch us intensely.I sigh and walk to the other three.

“I guess this is goodbye, please skype me as often as you can” I say as I pull Calum in for a tight hug.

“I promise” Calum whispers as his arms hug me tight.

Next I hug Ashton and he tells me that he’s going to miss me and he’s going to call me as soon as they land in Europe.

Lastly I hug Luke and he looks at me with a look of pity.

“Michael told you didn’t he” I whisper in his ear as he hugs me tight

"Yeah” He whispers back

“Please get him to talk to me, Luke. I can’t handle these three months without talking to him. He’s going to try and shut me out but please don’t let him get away with it” I start to tear up and Luke pulls me away about and his hands cup my cheeks and brushes away the tears.

“Do you really think Michael could go even a day without talking to you? You are literally everything to Michael. It’ll all be fine, just give him a little time to process what he’s feeling right now” Luke kisses my cheek as they all wave and walk past the gate.

What he’s feeling right now? What is Michael feeling? Does he feel regret? Shame? Does he feel something for me? The thought both scares and excites me. I’ve never really gave me and Michael a lot of thought cause we always made it so clear that we were not interested in each other and that we’re just best friends. But now that he kissed me, it’s a whole other story.

I type a quick text to Michael before I crawl back in bed to hopefully catch some sleep.

- I know you’re not really of a feelings talker but when you’re ready I’m here x

And with that I close my eyes and eventually get some hours of sleep until the buzzing of my phone wakes me up at 4pmIt’s a message from Michael. My finger hovers over the button to read it but I eventually press it.

- I need a bit of time to think, please? I want to skype you tonight but I’m not really feeling like talking yet. sorry x

At first I’m angry, but I get it. This isn’t just a normal thing that is easy to talk about, our friendship is on the line and I think neither of us is willing to lose it.

- Okay, just call me on skype when you have time x

I text back and open my laptop. I do some school work, finish some reading when the familiar tune of skype starts playing. My heart beats really fast as I press the answer button and Michael’s face pops up, he looks tired but he still manages to look handsome anyway.

“Hey” Michael smiles softly

“Hi” I almost whisper. This is probably the most awkward we’ve ever been.

“How is Europe?” I smile, trying to get this awkwardness to go away

“It’s great, it’s really pretty here! I’m really tired though” He answers and with that he jawns which makes me jawn too and he laughs.

“Isn’t it pretty late back home?” Michael asks

“Ehm yeah I guess” I check my phone to see the time, “It’s 1am” I shrug.

“And why are you awake again? You’ve been up since 4:30 or something” Michael says

“Hey, you said you would skype me so here I am alright?“ I chuckle

"Right” Michael mumbles and there’s an awkward pause again.

“Michael?” I whisper softly in which he hums quietly.

“I’m scared” I carry on whispering

"Me too” Michael sighs and he’s not looking at his screen anymore.

“I don’t want to lose you over this Michael” I can feel myself tear up.

“Lindy I can promise you that you won’t” He answers and he’s looking back at the screen, “as long as you still want me around I’ll be there”

“What does that even mean, Michael? I’m still so confused about everything that happened” I mumble

“I haven’t really made up my mind yet” Michael sighs, “I know things are hard right now but I promise I’ll try to talk about all of this as soon as I know what’s going on inside my head”

“Fine” I answer, “Promise me you’re going to kill the shows out there okay? You’re going to do great" I smile

“I’ll try my best” He smiles back

"Do you still want me to come visit in a couple of weeks?“ I ask, unsure if he still wants me to be around him.

"Of course I still want you here! But you should get some sleep, you look really tired”

“Wow, thanks for the compliment Michael” I laugh, “ but I could say the same thing about you”

“Goodnight Lindy, I’ll try to talk to you tomorrow okay?” Michael says and I nod

"Yeah talk to you soon, goodnight Michael” And the skype call ends.

As soon as I couldn’t see his face anymore, I missed him. I’m scared of what’s going to happen between us. Does Michael have feelings for me? But also do I have feelings for Michael? And if so, what was I going to do with these feelings when Michael doesn’t return them. Everything will change because of one kiss, No matter how silly it sounds. I’ve always found Michael attractive, he’s funny, he knows me inside out. He is always there for me.

What if I do really love Michael?

DUM DUM DUUUUM, I’m so excited about this! I hope whoever reads this that you’re enjoying it

anonymous asked:

So I get really uncomfortable every time my bf brings up his ex (I had bad experiences with her, one of my previous bf's cheated on me with her and she's nearly broken my current bf and I up a few times) but last time I brought her up he freaked out and said that if I can't get over her hell break up with me and I just don't know what to do

um so you can do two things: tell him that the both of you need to just vent about her and get it all out of your system and lay it all out on the table but promise not to break up or you can just never talk about her/the issue again and also not let him talk either so yeah i guess just do what you’re more comfy with but i guess i’d go with the venting and tbh if things don’t work out then he doesn’t deserve you anyways

anonymous asked:

[P1] My friend, datemate, and I are all very close and we recently told each other we were all fickin. My datemate and I don't often express it vocally, but our friend never stops talking about how they're kin and how they have headmates and lately that's all our conversations have been about. It makes me really upset because I feel like we'll never be able to talk with her about anything else because somehow she manages to bring it up and make it the main topic. I'd talk to her about it, but

[P2] this isn’t the first time something like this has happened. Every other time we talk to her about something going on, she either promises she won’t do it again but proceeds to do it anyway or somehow gaslights the shit out of us. Our friendship is toxic to begin with. It kinda makes me understand why some people don’t like fickin, it’s really annoying how that’s all she’s about anymore. That’s not what fickin is about, you shouldn’t let kinship consume your entire life. [END]

Let me see you.
I want to know
if your lips are full and soft
the kind that I won’t mind
kissing everyday
or if they have turned
hard and brown
because you smoked too much

I want to know
if you have dimples that
dig deep below your cheeks,
or if you have a constellation
of tiny freckles that spread
all over your nose

I want to know
if your eyes are the kind
that makes you look like
a little boy asking his mother
to buy him candy,
or the kind that burns, forcing
others to look away
the moment their eyes meet yours

Don’t be afraid –
it’s not like I will strip
every piece of fabric off your
body to get familiar with
every inch of you
(although we can talk about
that if you want)

Let me see you, and
I promise you will never
see me again

I resonate with this article so much. I found myself early in my teen years before I fell off the wagon (to get back on again a few years later) being ashamed of my catholic and Pentecostal roots. I had been hurt by my home church and promised to never return. I did. God used them to fund my trip to Uganda. He’s given me an internship there this summer that has just happened to work out. It’s crazy. I am just so in awe of what God has done and how he’s brought me back. I am so comfortable with what Sarah talks about in this article. I felt like I was reading thoughts I hadn’t been able to express.
It just shows me God is a God of continual reconciliation and revival.

|| The Basics ||

Name: Pietro Maximoff.
Nickname(s): Potate face (nO WANDA), brother
Age: 18
Species: (Enhanced) Human

|| Personal ||

Religious Belief: Jewish
Sins: Lust / Greed / Gluttony / Sloth / Pride / Envy / Wrath
Virtues: Chastity / Charity / Diligence / Humility / Kindness / Patience /Justice
Primary Goals In Life: Protect Wanda, Help whoever he can
Languages Known: English, Sokovian.
Secrets: Has never told Wanda about when Hydra made her torture and kill their prisoners, would sacrifice himself again in an instant despite promising Wanda he wouldnt
Quirks:  Fidgets all the time, accidentally superspeeds a lot, talks in sokovian when a) complaining b) drunk or c) tired

|| Physical ||

Height: 5′10″.
Weight: 176 lbs
Scars/Birthmarks: lots of bullet scars, surgical scars
Abilities/Powers: Superspeed, Enhanced metabolism, Superhuman Reflexes/Agility/Stamina
Restrictions: Wanda (He’s constantly worrying about her), psychiatrists

|| Favorites ||

Favourite Drink: Coca-Cola.
Favourite Pizza Topping: Pepperoni
Favourite Color: Blue
Favourite Music Genre: Rock music, Alternative
Favourite Book Genre: Action
Favourite Movie Genre: Sci-Fi

Favourite Season: Winter and Spring
Favourite Butt Type: ones attached to cute people
Favourite Swear Word: Fuck
Favourite Scent: Burning rubber

|| Fun Stuff ||

Bottom or Top: Bottom.
Sings In The Shower: Sometimes.
Likes Bad Puns: lOVES bad puns.
Morality: Lawful / Neutral / Chaotic / Good / Gray / Evil
Build: Slender / Scrawny / Bony / Fit / Athletic / Herculean / Babyfat / Pudgy / Obese /Other.
Favourite Food: Skittles
Theme Music : “Run Boy Run” by Woodkid

Their Opinion On The Mun: “Honestly needs to start exercising more. And actually focus on schoolwork! Take to opportunity I never had, dude.”

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