I seem to go on a lot of weather rants.
Ugh, I’m awful. It makes me feel really unjustifiably bitter whenever I hear people talking about how beautiful or blue or bright or sunny the weather in Seoul supposedly is. The lack of actual blue sky here is one of two things that I will never ever ever ever be able to accept or adjust to here. (People pushing/touching me is the other thing.) Do other people just not see the constant haze and layer of smog?! I want to know the secret. How does this not bother other people?! Ugh. I just miss blue skies and bright sun so very very much. That was one of the nicest things about being home in Kansas recently. Even though it was the middle of winter and it had decided to be really fucking cold for the days I was there, the sun was still shining beautifully in a way that it just rarely (if ever) does in Seoul. (This does seem to be a Seoul-specific issue, because I remember far more blue skies when I lived in Gwangju.) To be fair, the weather has been acceptably warm for this time of year, at least, despite the haze. Also, my mood has always been very weather dependent and I hope to live somewhere where the skies are almost constantly clear someday, like the desert. In addition to not being able to live somewhere really smoggy, I could also never live somewhere it rains a lot, like the Pacific-Northwest. I would literally die of misery.
Today was also not a fantastic day, so I’m feeling both justifiably and unjustifiably bitter about a lot of things right now. That’s probably part of it.