People would think that those words are easier to deal with the more we hear them, but that’s not true. Every time a member leaves, it hurts, it hurts so much… And we ELF have been through this multiple times now.
Everyone has their own way of trying to lessen the pain, tho. I’ve seen girls cry and cry on twitter the day they leave, and then completely forget they’re gone.
I’ve seen girls turning their backs to SJ when their bias leaves and only become a fan again when he comes back.
People would think I don’t have feelings just because I don’t cry, just because I don’t feel the sadness of them leaving.
Yes, it’s sad, it’s horrible, and I hate it when they leave. Leeteuk’s goodbye felt depressing. He kept smiling, when he obviously wanted to cry. Even Sungmin and Kyuhyun did cry…
Yesung’s tho… he didn’t even say goodbye, and I think that hurt me even more. Maybe because I wanted to see him one more time.
The thing is, I hate farewells, but it’s not when I feel the worst.
For me, it’s after 6 or 7 months they’re gone, when I miss them.
Before that, sometimes it’s kinda easy. They’ve just left, I still have fresh memories of them before.. but from those 7 months till it’s been a year and a half, I just feel a void in my heart, like something’s missing.
And it is.
Probably, the last 6 months of wait are just more like… expectation. Because they’re about to come back.
He, who has been “missing” for two years, is coming back.
I want to think that enlistments just make us grow as a fandom.
It’s hard for each of us.
But we’ve done it before and we will keep doing it. Just seeing them say goodbye and waiting for them to come back again.
We can do it with every member, because we ELF are the strongest.