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Stick to the balanced middle in all affairs

Wahb Ibn Munabbih said:

A scholar once asked another greater than him in knowledge:

“How much should I build?”

He replied “As much as shelters you from the sun and the rain.”

He asked “How much food should I eat?”

He replied “More than what keeps you hungry and less than what makes you full.

He asked “How much should I wear?”

He replied “As the Messiah (Isa) did.”

He asked “How much should I laugh?”

He replied “As much as appears on your face but does not make audible your voice.

He asked “How much should I cry? ”

He replied, “Never tire from crying out of the fear of Allah.”

He asked “How much should I hide my deeds?”

He replied “Until people think you had not done a good deed.

He asked “How much should I make public my deeds?”

He replied “As much as will let the keen follow your example but not have the people talk about you.

Wahb said. “Everything has two ends and a middle. If you grab one end, the other will slant, but if you take the middle, both ends will balance. Stick to the balanced middle in all affairs.

[Source: Abu Nu’aym, Hilyatu Al-Awliya` 4:45]

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Sometimes we find the ones we need and at times we leave the one we need too. But Sherlock had never expected it to end like this. And he shouldn’t have been the one who was begging, trying to make things right because it was John who had slept with her… who had touched her.

On one drunken whim, everything was now about to end.

“I don’t mind.” Sherlock Whispered into the darkness, wondering if the still body beside him had fallen asleep. The silence that followed seemed to answer that question until John rolled over and skimmed his cheek with the tip of his nose, quivering breath skating flesh.

“Don’t say that.” John murmured, desperately.

Sherlock hated the way his hands gripped his arms as if he were his only life support.

“You can’t decide that for me.” Sherlock argued, weakly.

“Don’t pretend like this is all fine, Sherlock. You deserve so much more.”

Butterflies were batting at his insides, the dangerous ones with knives for wings, stuttering his lungs and gouging his eyes. Nightmares personified.

He would wake up any minute. He had to.

“I still don’t mind it.” Sherlock replied, softly.

John’s hands disappeared with a bitter sting and he turned his back, now facing the obnoxious clock on the wall. Ticking away what felt like their last wasted seconds.

“Us— I’m not happy with it. That’s why I turned to her. You never even look at me anymore. I know that sounds selfish and idiotic but you could have spared one goddamn second from a case instead of driving me away like this.”

It all came lashing out so sudden and yet issued through Sherlock’s mind like winding syrup, never quite thickening. It was his fault. All of it.

Curling on his side, Sherlock forced his eyes shut and ignored the wetness that somehow escaped, betraying him…

“I’ll come and get my things tomorrow.” John said.

And he did.

Sherlock came back from a dull case the following night and John’s medical books that were once scattered across his bedside were missing and the closet was more than empty… The laptop gone. And the bed was done up in some orderly fashion as if pretending they had never shared it.

Sherlock didn’t believe him. Not even when John began to see her on a daily basis. Not even when it had been nearly three weeks since they last had spoken. John had sent texts to him of course but it didn’t count if Sherlock just deleted them right after.

Sherlock didn’t believe him when he saw him a month later at a hospital after being shot and John ran in, sentimentally wrecked and all. But what was he to say to him? After everything…

Apparently John was still seeing her, but he never mentioned his new relationship and when he brought Sherlock back to Baker Street, he made him tea and left an hour later.

He started to see him more and more, which he viewed as a good thing because it looks like John had given up long ago but now they were going on cases together. And after Sherlock pressed John against the brick wall while on a midnight chase and kissed him fiercely, John pushed him off and told him he didn’t need him anymore.

And it was back to John being away from his life.

Sherlock still didn’t believe him because this has all got to be right. They were right. Right? John was imagining that what they had was never reality, rather a bad dream. But Sherlock knew he would come around. He had to. He just had to.

“I told you not to come around here anymore.” John said when he opened the door and Sherlock was standing at his pavement, nervously pacing.

John sighed and stepped forward, pulling Sherlock into the width of his embrace and for a second Sherlock could imagine that they hadn’t been apart. Not even once. Never.

“Don’t pretend you never loved me.” Sherlock said, his voice cracking with the endurance of a plain composure.

“I couldn’t.” John breathed.

She must have gone out for some milk or something of importance because she was gone as John turned on the kettle and turned back to Sherlock, while they both sat in the kitchen chairs.  

“We fight and at times I let you down but I never understood why I was being punished this way. Why you loved her more…” It was the first time Sherlock had even brought her up directly. But there was no time to over-analyze or contemplate before John was touching him delicately… testing his bounds and finding their old routine.

Sherlock stood and sat in John’s lap, tipping back his head and kissed him with such reverence, that John would have to be convinced that Sherlock would only want him or would only pick him. Exhaling harshly, John removed both belts and brought Sherlock off and Sherlock fell to his knees and returned the favor, graciously. Afterwards Sherlock knew it was still there. The passion. Everything that would keep them both up late at night.

“I still don’t mind John.” Sherlock muttered, wiping his mouth.

“I don’t believe you.”

But no. It was the other way around. Sherlock didn’t believe John. All this time and Sherlock never believed John from the instant he left. It was because he did mind. Therefore, John truly didn’t believe him as well.

Sherlock wanted more. So much more.

But she would be home soon.

They’ve had enough now. 

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Hot Boss Update

so the other day, she got hurt from just carrying a vase. i was like asdfgh shes so cute and fragile it makes me feel so protective of her

and i took some clothes out of her hands bc they were too heavy for her
and my hands brushed her stomach by accident but she was kind of leaning into me and i was internally crying

and then i told her not to lift anything anymore and she said “you should just tie my hands behind my back” and i was so flustered i was just like “yeah hahah”

and lately ive noticed more and more she comes into the back room when i’m there or finds little exuses to touch me like our fingers brush when she’s handing me something and it’s not just because i’m trying to do that anymore (lol) or if i’m at the computer in the back room she’ll come up and lean against the counter like a foot away from me, you know how many times ive thought i could just take one step and be pinning her to the counter? too many

and i made her a playlist and when i gave it to her her face lit up she got so excited it was adorable

oh oh and she was eating cake and she was like “i shouldnt be eating this i’m gaining so much weight” (shes skinny as hell) and i was like “youre gorgeous” and she looked up and said “excuse me?” and i repeated “you look gorgeous just how you are” and she blushes and stuttered a thank you

ok so in conclusion everything hurts and im dying

i … think i might ask her to get dinner with me. like platonically casually but that way i can see if she’d be even more flirty outside work and we can talk and spend time together and i can drop hints more freely

anonymous asked:

Do you know any josei/shoujo that has affairs in it?

A majority of these are josei because I don’t think shoujo manga deals with these situations very often. 

Try:

  • Aijin Kankei   
  • Aisuru Hito 
  • Ane no Kekkon  
  • Futago 
  • Honnou Honey  
  • Kabe no Hana - Hishoyaka na Shoka no Yoru no     
  • Katakoi no Tsuki 
  • Kimi to Rakuen Room   
  • Kinjirareta Ai no Kajitsu 
  • Kouya no Koi 
  • Lavender wa Kiken na Kaori   
  • Mehyou to Chuujitsu na Geboku 
  • Nisekoi Doumei *
  • Off-Time no Kemono   
  • Reijou to Playboy   
  • Tsumi Koi   

* = recommended by others.