"Don’t even know if you’re alive or if you went away for good this time"

New little video of The Hard Aches

My dreams were never to be here.

Growing up I always had big dreams. I wanted to travel the world, be successful, be liked by those around me, find love, be smart, funny, charming, but most of all I wanted to be happy. My dreams were to never be here.

I need to be challenged. I need to be inspired. I’m not getting either of those at the moment. The reality is that I’m not happy here. I wasn’t happy when I lived here before, and I won’t be happy until I leave again.

I have this feeling inside of me. It’s the same feeling I had before I made the life changing decision to move to New York. A change is coming, and it excites me that I have no idea what it’s going to be.


Adélaïde of Paris  (c. 850/853 – 10 November 901) was the second wife of Louis the Stammerer, King of Western Francia, and was the mother of Princess Ermentrude and King Charles the Simple.

Adelaide was the daughter of the count palatine Adalard of Paris. Her great-grandfather was Bégon, Count of Paris. Her great-grandmother, Alpaïs, wife of Bégon, was the illegitimate daughter of Louis the Pious by an unnamed mistress.

The young lady was chosen by Charles the Bald, King of Western Francia, to marry his son and heir, Louis the Stammerer, despite the fact that Louis had secretly married Ansgarde of Burgundy.

Although Louis and Ansgarde already had two children( Louis and Carloman) Charles prevailed upon Pope John VIII, to dissolve the union. This accomplished, Charles married his son to Adelaide in February 875.

However, the marriage was called into question because of the close blood-kinship of the pair. When on 7 September 878 the pope crowned Louis (who had succeeded his father in the previous year), but he refused to crown Adelaide.

When Louis the Stammerer died in Compiegne on 10 April 879, Adelaide was pregnant, giving birth on 17 September 879, to Charles the Simple.

The birth of this child led to a dispute between Adelaide and Ansgarde. Ansgarde and her sons accused Adelaide of adultery; Adelaide in turn disputed the right of Ansgarde’s sons to inherit.

Eventually, Adelaide succeeded in winning the case; but despite this, Ansgarde’s sons Louis and Carloman remained kings until their deaths without heirs in 882 and 884 respectively, with the crown then being contested between Odo, Count of Paris and Charles the Fat.

Charles eventually succeeded to his father’s throne in 898; his mother assisted in crowning him. She died in Laon on 10 November 901 and was buried in the Abbey of Saint-Corneille, Compiègne, Picardy.