Am I ableist if I wish there was a cure for autism? I don't want it. I'm so tired of it. But at the same time, how do I know what's me and what's the syndrome? How would I change if it went away?
No, you’re not. I also wish I could get rid of my autism due to how it affects my life, as well as several other things. You are not ableist for wanting to remove a disability that is genuinely hurting and impairing you.
I really can’t comprehend why people would try to glamorize autism and similar disabilities. I’ve seen people say that it’s a coping method to adopt it as a trait and not a flaw, but I’ve seen people use it as an excuse to act like an elitist asshole and act like it’s the only disability that matters. That’s just wrong.
Yet I digress.
Unlike what certain people would have you believe, autism is NOT a personality trait or part of your personality. It affected the growth of your personality, yes, but is not strictly a part of it, so removing the autism would not drastically change who you are, only restore what was once missing. The important part is the humility we learn from having lost something precious.
Higher-functioning autistics often manage to adapt to society and entirely lose their surface autistic traits, and plenty of autistic people are otherwise simply people underneath the symptoms.
If anything, you would still simply be you, but without the flaws, and keep the learning experience. It would not change your personality at all, just give you the ability that autism had previously restrained.
In the end, it’s up to you if you want to cure it or not. c: Just make sure it’s a genuine cure, not something risky or potentially harmful. Wouldn’t want to make your problems worse…