I know it was only a dream and I had it months ago, but it keeps replaying in my head. What if when I see you, you are all mad at me and too “cool” to even like look at me or talk. I know that wont happen and you’d prob give me a giant hug but I still just have that thought in the back of my mind that you could care less to see me. I know you’ll prob never read this, but I have been just missing you so much and I know that you’re the only real guy I trust my everything with. I guess I’m just holding onto hope.
I should let go because you are 194762220573 miles away, but still. You’re my first and last. But I just keep having those thoughts of that you wouldn’t even care to see me if I came up this summer, even though you said you would love to. “Yes yes yes yes yes I still do” I quote you said that 😉
Fuck my stupid paranoia.