I feel ugly today. Outside and in. My inner critic leaves claw marks. I need you to extinguish me when I come aflame. I need reminding that my face is not the physical manifestation of my soul. I need the primal comfort of being touched and touching, of being known and knowing. I need you. My words are falling flat. Cliché-ridden. Pretentious. Dull. I always feel that way, but today it’s stronger. I feel trapped in my own body. I feel I’m living a life of repetitions. I feel crippled, and I miss you. I know I’ll see you in the dining hall, but it’s never soon enough.

I want to show you my favourite films and songs, to cull every scrap of beauty I can from this world and roll it up together to give you. You make me glad to be alive, and I want you. All of you. Your golden lands and lights and sounds and lips and teeth and fingertips. I’m reaching out for you the way flowers grow towards light.

I feel better just thinking about you. I’ll see you in the dining hall, gorgeous.

—  Benedict Smith, Letter #8


It is the first day of a brand new month, and I am spending a beautiful Sunday afternoon in the library. It’s nearly the end of term, which means it’s close to the deadline for my three portfolio essays: so today I am finishing off my Wordsworth portfolio essay about the self in The Prelude. My 3 essays (on Thomson, Wordsworth & Austen) will be marked instead of a Paper 6 (Long 18th C.) exam, so they need to be amazing! I want to finish them early as I have quite a few things planned socially next weekend (birthdays, parties, etc.), and I want to be able to chill! 

 We also had our ‘room choosing’ day yesterday, and I can’t wait to share the view from my room next year, it’s beaut! 

 - Sarah


Someday our souls will be one
and our union will be forever.
I know that everything I give you
comes back to me.
So I give you my life, hoping that
you will come back to me.
If you find me not within you,
you will never find me.
For, I have been with you,
from the beginning of me

Good morning and happy Sunday beautifuls. With another wonderful day ahead of us, I am spending it wrapped up in beautiful color, lace, and dreamy comfort love. My picks are from the VS Dream Angels collection and are the demi bra and cheekini panty. Feeling incredibly empowered, sexy, and feminine, I am ready to face the day ahead. As you prepare for the day ahead wrap up in a foundation that lets your inner beauty shine. Choose to believe in and love yourself completely, knowing in your heart just how beautiful you are inside and out. Engage in the moment, focus on the positive, and let your love flow out to touch the lives of those who surround you. Strive to be the good in the world you want to see as you pursue the passions that truly make you light burn brighter. Dare to let yourself be vulnerable to the world, allow yourself to truly be loved the way you deserve to be. Find strength and confidence in being true to yourself and have an incredible time rocking your day. Love you all. xoxo MML <3

Wake up to find out that you are the eyes of the world,
the heart has its beaches, its homeland and thoughts of its own.
Wake now, discover that you are the song that the mornin’ brings,
But the heart has its seasons, its evenin’s and songs of its own

Grateful Dead - Eyes of the World