TOO LATE IT'S HAPPENING

Give Me Love Part 5

Pair : Jensen x Reader

A/N : We are almost near the end. What will she say?! Message me with your thoughts! xoxo

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Its too late to run away from it all. It happened, Jensen and I. And now, now we are here. Our worlds falling apart.

I know I should just walk away, but I wasn’t moving. I couldn’t. Why did he have so much power over me? It was like I was chained to him. Able to take a few steps, but never able to leave.

“Get out! You both deserve each other!” Danneel spewed. I shot my eyes her direction. Witnessing Jensen being pushed out of the house and Danneel slamming the door in front of him.

Shit, she knows. She has to for her to be that angry. Great, I not only ruined my life, but I ruined theirs. I hurt the only person in my life that I ever cared for. Im a monster, nothing more than just a home wrecking little-

“Y/N!” Jensen Yelled out, running after me. He eyes were locked with mine and I was frozen

Leave Y/N! Now is your chance. Go and never look back. Don’t let him get to you because you wont ever be able to get out.

He made his way to me. Panting, trying to catch his breath. “I told her, everything. Because I couldn’t lie anymore. I love you Y/N. I want you. And only you.”

I opened my mouth, but nothing came out. Fuck, I was stuck. Glued to this man and now I’m in way too deep.

His lips crashed into mine, his hands traveled along my torso as he pulled me in closer. How can something so wrong feel so right? He puts me on a high, sending me to nirvana. He is the only person to ever make me feel this way.

My mind was hazy, flooded with different emotions. And even though I hate myself for this, I caved in. Taking him in and tasting him. He is in my arms.

“Lets go, just you and me. We will go anywhere.” He whispered.

“W-what? Are you sure?” I muttered, feeling his lips lightly graze over mine.

“Yeah, come on.” He stammered, taking my hand and pulling me to his car.

“We got nothing to lose..” I exhaled, following close behind. But I couldn’t help my eyes gazing towards the house, where the blinds slightly shifted. She was looking at us, probably hating us, hating me.
What am I doing?

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“Where do you want to go?” He asked, tugging at my hand as we sat in his car, waiting.

I looked into his eyes, feeling safe. As if I were meant to be where I was. He had that affect on me, and I hated him for it.

“Surprise me” I shrugged, curving my lips up. Jensen let out a soft sigh and returned his gaze back to the road.

“Lets drive to Jareds.” He muttered.

Awesome, going to his best friends house, whose wife is Danneels best friend. Who knows me, had family dinners with.
I was beginning to feel anxious, as if I were about to throw up.

“Are you Crazy?!” I yelped.

“What? Why?” He stopped the car  and turned his body to face me. His smile had vanished and he was serious. “Y/N, I love you. And they will understa-”

“Are you kidding me? Jensen, you’re married. TO MY SISTER!” I felt my voice raise. Anger and anxiety all wrapped in one. “I love you, but we cant do this. We cant be together and pretend everything is ok.”

Jensen pursed his lips and nodded. His eyes welled with tears as he crossed his arms over his chest.

“This isn’t going to work. We didn’t think this through. Your family, my family and all of our friends will never accept us.”

“But we will have each other Y/N. Doesn’t that matter?” He looked helpless.

This wasn’t what I wanted. I didn’t want to be in this situation. To be in love with him. But you cant help who you fall in love with.

It does matter. But that doesn’t change anything, because what we are doing isn’t ok. We will be hurting everyone around us. We already hurt Danneel, and for that, I will never be able to forgive myself.

“As much as I wish it were enough, it isn’t.” A tear fell silently on to my cheek, causing others to flow behind. I couldn’t control myself.

“Y/N, please don’t do this. Don’t walk away.” He pleaded.

I couldn’t handle the tension. The longing stare and the quivering of his lip. I want to just take him in, kiss him and pretend its just us.

How do you look at someone you love, and tell yourself its time to walk away?

“I love you Jensen, and I think a part of me will always love you. And I wish things were different, But I cant be with you.” I wiped my tears and swallowed hard. “I wont.”
I pushed the passenger door open, feeling the cold air hit my face. It was refreshing.

“Y/N…” Jensen croaked, his tears streaming down his cheeks. I closed the door behind me and began walking. As much as I wanted to turn around, I couldn’t.

With no destination, I kept my pace.

I know what I did was the right thing to do, but my heart felt like it was ripped out of my chest and stomped on. My stomach churned and I felt like my world stopped spinning.

Don’t stop. Breathe and keep going.

“Y/N!” Jensen Yelped.

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(Jensens Pov)

Shes gone. Not once has she turned back to look at me. What the hell happened? 

I was happily married. In love with how my life was going. But now, I feel lost. Watching her go is probably the hardest thing I have ever been through.

What am I suppose to do now? I mean, I still love Danneel, shes been my best friend for over 8 years now and I care about her so much. But then there is Y/N. Her younger sister. The girl I watched grow up and loved her like family. When did it become so much more? 

Screw it, I cant let her walk away. Not now, not after everything we have been through. 

“Y/N!” I yelped. Running toward her, I pulled her hand and crashed my lips to hers. Pressing firmly and cupping my hands on to her cheek. 

“I love you. I’m not going to give up on this, on you.” I exhaled. “You’re worth it. Worth the fight, and I know, this is it. You’re it. Please dont go.”

“Jensen I-” 

“I want to marry you. I want to grow old with you. When i think about my future, I see you there. Please.” I stammered. 

Her mouth parted but no words escaped. Just her eyes lingering. 

What is she thinking? Say something. Anything…. 

a 7th grader called me a he-she cuz I’m trans and I was like getting really serious and looked right down on him and said “there is no he in me anymore” in like a threatening tone of voice so I could scare this kid into leaving trans girls alone and my fucking friend ruined it by saying “there’s been a lot of he’s in you though” and I’m done

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  • me:/decides to look for mother's day gift ideas online
  • every website ever:sleepwear! cooking appliances! this thing that we made pink for mother's day because females only want pink things! this useless floral watering can! candles and soap! things "every mother wants" but will probably never use unless they want these things normally!

omg guys does anyone know anything about g-drives? or external hard drives??? i had one plugged into my computer and photoshop was running and my actual computer said my disk was almost full so i made my photoshop use only my g-drive and not my computer’s hard drive so it wouldn’t fill up and freak out and suddenly the computer force ejected the g-drive and said everything was full and said there was an error and now when i plug in the g-drive into any computer it’s not showing up. the g-drive had tons of free space, it’s the computer that was full but now the g drive isn’t showing up and im worried that i might’ve lost 150g and 4 years worth of information.

midorei asked:

Blood, Candle & Moth

Moth- What do you find attractive in a person?

Physically.. I find people with glasses attractive, soft or messy hair and well..this isn't physical but add deep voices too.

Overall though, personality is what I care about most. Cute, childish-like people are going to be the death of me, whether in anime or real life. Having confidence, maybe a little bit of arrogance does it for me too - I like to be sarcastic, and this type is just perfect for that. If someone is what I would see as weird - yes; perverted - yes. However, either of these should be combined with a good personality. I wouldn't find anyone attractive just because they’re a pervert to say if they’re an A+ asshole. (Obviously, in anime I don’t give a damn anymore. And if we’re talking about anime, mad guys always win me over. The more mad, the better. Evil laughs, mad grins, mad expression - they are bloody hot. I’m not even going to get started about mad doctors.. Haha, but one would be hard to find in real life so I’d be happy with a chemistry teacher or sth. Oups, I’ve got a little away from the subject here > ^ <.)

Candle- what is your favorite scent? 

Hmm.. Sweet scents! Candy sweet to be more exact. It’s hard to give a concrete answer but this the scent itself, a sugary-like one. That’s why most of my perfumes are super sweet! I like the smell of roses too though. 

Blood- What is the worst injury you’ve gotten?

Injury.. I guess my operation wasn’t for an injury so I can’t say that. I’ve had so many injuries this life but nothing terribly serious. Most were because of me being clumsy and ending up falling from somewhere and peeling off the skin off my legs like crazy but.. I think it might be the time I broke my small toe. It wasn’t serious as in being too visible, but it hurt like hell for almost two weeks and I had to walk like a penguin.

Thank you so much for asking! <3

Hells Dream

 in this one I was on junk planet full of aliens and I make friends with middle age man also trap on it so I make transmitter and contact robots they come on giant spaceship to save us. Then we are attack by aliens and are forced to make crash landing but before it happens middle age man screams “its too late they have gestated, the shark was in my house” his stomach explode and lot of small glowing flying sharks go out into space and fly away. Robots crash the ship on island and find tunnel so they go in. after time I decide to go in too and it turns into game like system shock 2 in tunnels but I am fighting little robot bugs. Then I take train down into tunnel and it turns out this is tunnel to hell and robots are fighting demons from hell and shooting hell. FInally I get to end of hell and just type noclip in console because it turn out this entire dream was doom 3 mod. Then I wake up