I found myself. It took over a year of torture and hell, and being lost, but finally I am happy. No more looking in the mirror while a deafening voice screams at me you will never be good enough. No more nights staring at the ceiling so numb from pain I feel nothing at all. Now I wake up in the morning with a smile on my face content with being me. Sure some days it feels like I might slip back into the darkness of depression, but I don’t. I know I won’t. I won’t because I’ve grown and changed into a person that I can love. Fuck, I’m far away from perfect but THAT IS OK. If learning to love yourself isn’t the most important thing you can learn to do, I’m not sure what is. To bad they don’t teach that in school… -Macy Gerken
—  Alwayz-waitingg

This is an elite unit. The only probability higher than you quitting is you getting killed. We hunt the darkest, most depraved criminals in the world, and if you question yourself for a second, that world will swallow you whole.

Welcome to

(the hunt begins this fall on nbc)

The series follows Cesar Schmidt (Patrick J. Adams) a young American wizard recently inducted into the Federal Auror Agency, and his struggles to find his footing amid the minefield of office politics, magical law, and the ever-present threat, ever-alluring promise of Dark magic.

At his side is the famous Ilene Skinner (Sanaa Lathan) whose ‘02 capture of the serial poisoner Aristo is the stuff of legend. Less well known is the fact that she hasn’t closed a case since, and being saddled with her as a partner is considered the death knell of a young auror’s career

Also among the cast is the prickly Helene Garza (Sarah Shahi) hotshot rising star of the department, and fiercely determined to prove herself despite the silver bracelet marking her a lycanthrope; as well as Selig May (Ezra Miller) the whizkid data arithmancer with the hopeless crush on Cesar and the pureblood family trying to push their son away from the public sector.

Also starring Jeff Bridges as gruff, aging Commissioner Holbert H. Horn, Michael Ealy as undercover auror Odell Shepherd, and Darryl Stephens & Clea Duvall as dark wizard duo Lonny and Yesenia Stokes.

He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster.

In truth, she was hoping he would notice.

Those small, ornate earrings. If not them, then the clip nestled in her hair, its elegant curve reminiscent of a blade.

She wanted him to look upon them and smile with remembrance as he recalled the moment he gave them to her, when he had been nothing but a boy, alight with anticipation, eager to impress the girl not yet a warrior. She wanted the light to hit them just so and cause a gleam that mimicked his smile back when it had shone as bright as the future he had so heavily desired to obtain.

She wanted to see him grin, laugh, drink. For he was laughing some, reminiscing some, in this moment with her, but it was not the same.

Perhaps it never would be.


"Tom was the only thing keeping Hal tame."


War - Slipping Into Darkness . All Day Music . United Artists Records . 1971

A Dream Within A Dream by Edgar Allan Poe

"A Dream Within a Dream" is a poem written by Edgar Allan Poe, first published in 1849. The poem is 24 lines, divided into two stanzas. The poem questions the way one can distinguish between reality and fantasy, asking, "Is all that we see or seem but a dream within a dream?"

The poem dramatizes a confusion in watching the important things in life slip away. Realizing he cannot hold onto even one grain of sand leads to his final question that all things are a dream.