Okay so, story time!! Listen up little ones because I want to share this with the entire Spn fandom and family. This story will restore your faith in humanity, so please read this.
So for those of you who know and are aware, I’m a sickly person. Both mentally and physically. I had a rough childhood, bad family situation and all that. So in result, my medical bills are stacked to the roof. Late fees and interest, and because of my health I can barely manage a job to pay for anything. My depression has been getting really bad as of late, given my recent suicide attempts and (yes even more) hospital stays. I’ve been in a bad place. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I thought you know, no one cared. I wasn’t good for anything, I couldn’t even manage a basic job and because I am so young, i have no experience for anything so people would just walk right over me.
Very recently I had a severe lapse. I was on the brink of suicide yet again. But this time was different. I was on my last option. I had nothing else left. And this was after the incident with Jared, when he fell. The fandom was right by his side in an instant. And they still are. They’re fighting for him even still today. Shortly after that happened, I fell. It was bad, I was really hurting. But this time I decided to do something about it, I decided to ask for help just like Jared did.
The response was overwhelming. hundreds of inbox messages within the hour. Love, support, encouragement, stories and so much more. People telling me to always keep fighting, don’t give up. Don’t let the demons win. I was happy. People actually cared. People helped me feel better even at my lowest point. The messages never stopped. I never knew so many people cared for my well being.
In my plea I said something to the effect of not being able to continue fighting my battles without getting the chance to meet my heros personally. (Jared Padalecki and Misha Collins). They’ve done so much to help me without even knowing my name. They’ve saved my life. Those two men are one of the main reasons I am typing this today. If I could do just that one thing, if i could just meet them, I could keep fighting until I grew old. I could stand for myself and try again. I could keep going. But there was no way that was going to happen. My medical bills were to prevent me from ever getting the chance to see them, in my entire life. Nothing made me feel worse than knowing that was a absolute fact.
Shortly after I made my plea for help, I received a message on Tumblr from user
michika0amaya. This person offered to buy me an entire weekend pass to the Supernatural convention in New Jersey, no questions asked, no catch. Only payment they asked for in return? To be happy and enjoy myself, and to send lots of pictures. That’s literally it.
Well at first I have to admit, I was skeptical. I didn’t want to get my hopes up only to be dragged down farther to the point of no return if it turned out to be a prank. I also didn’t want to burden my troubles on someone else. I honestly did not think it was fair. But this person did not take no for an answer and insisted that it was to be. So it happened. I actually have an entire weekend pass to go see Misha, Jared, Jensen and all of the other dorks that I love so much and have made such a positive impact in my life. I actually get this chance. This once in a life time opportunity from a stranger who didn’t even know me.
If you have never witnessed the love and power of the Spn Fandom and Family, I am here to tell you first hand that it is real. So very real and so very powerful. Thank you. I can’t say it enough. Thank you all for being here for me. Thank you for the love and support. Thank you for the words of encouragement. And thank you so much, michika0amaya for giving me the chance of a lifetime to see my heros. To See Misha and Jared. even if it’s just for one weekend. It’s all I needed.