mickey milkovich :(
it needs to be pointed out that everything that has gone on since 505 has taken place in the span of three to four days and in that time, Mickey finds out Ian is cheating on him, gets very drunk/high, shoots up a coffee shop, has a violent confrontation with Ian about going to the hospital, has his child kidnapped, has no idea where his boyfriend is or if he’s safe, finds his boyfriend in another state, is reunited with Ian and Yevgeny, faces bouts of guilt about not helping Ian, has to watch as Ian is checked into a mental hospital.
so THEN Ian is in the mental hospital, getting the help that people have been telling Mickey Ian should have been getting for months and Mickey probably thinks “this is it. things are turning around. how much worse can it get?”.
so Mickey puts on his best outfit and goes to a place where he is highly uncomfortable so that he can see Ian, the boy he loves more than anything and the boy who is supposed to be getting healthy. Mickey probably sat up the whole night before thinking about this moment.
He gets there and Ian’s not there mentally at all. Ian doesn’t say a word to Mickey, Ian can’t focus on anything, Ian leaves after a minute.
It all probably makes Mickey feel 34534534636 times more guilty. He promised himself that he would take care of Ian and Ian would not go to some “nut house.” FAILED. Mickey said that Ian needed to be committed in order to get the help Mickey feels like he could not longer provide. The way Ian is in the hospital is not what he imagined. Once again, Mickey feels like he FAILED.
Mickey leaves instantly. He can’t take it. He gets drunk. He goes home. Everyone is gone. Mickey is alone.