I-WISH-this-is-what-had-happened.

My part for the Makorra Gift Exchange thing going on at makorragiftexchange! I got space—cowboys / formerly americas—psycho. Unfortunately, I’m not a writer as much as I am an artist so I’m hoping to compensate with this here’s film noir-inspired one for you :)

It’s been a pleasure taking part in this! I’ve been a fan of this pair as well. I hope you like it! <3 

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Was there a moment when you really wished there was someone else in your movie?
"No, for me what happened is before i began shooting, we used to talk a lot. Then I saw ‘Main Tera Hero’ after we had signed him. And I had a moment of doubt because there’s so much energy and bounce there so how can we bottle this and that kind of thing. Then the rest Varun will say" - Sriram Raghavan

This is for my anon (yaoi anime links)

Heyyy someone asked for links for yaoi anime soo sorry who ever asked that my ask box deleted the question? But here’s what I got for you unfortunately there’s not many shows with seasons but theres ova that are 1-4 episodes, junjou romantica is two seasons (third season coming whooo!) The hybrid child is from the creators of Sekaiichi hatsukoi and junjou romantica has 4 ep and yokozawa takafumi no baii movie includes a Sekaiichi hatsukoi special, Boy cought a merman is one episode but its just the cutest thing, Ikoku Irokoi Romantan its two ep (I wish it had more)  I have heard that they might put season three of junjou romantica in crunchy roll just hope that happens so that’s all I have I have more but I’ll try to remember where I wrote the titles but if you ask what yaoi manga to read oh lord there would be no end i write always write them down in case i want to read them again hahaha hope this helps if you guys have anymore questions just ask me ;) (links below) 

(Boy cought a merman) http://www.watchanimemovie.com/sub-dub/kono-danshi-ningyo-hiroimashita.html?url=http://playbb.me/at/nw/this_boy_caught_a_merman_ova.mp4

(Ikoku Irokoi Romantan)
http://www.animefave.tv/ikoku-irokoi-romantan/

Junjou romantica
https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL4U0FQ15BX8BNf3C6YGyOQHSkNmA9cMPU

Yokozawa takafumi no baii movie + Sekaiichi ova
http://animebacon.tv/anime_detail.php?id=1382

Hybrid child
http://anilinkz.tv/series/hybrid-child

kire papa ova 1 and 2

http://www.veoh.com/m/watch.php?v=v62391529Nec5TkJ?h1=Kirepapa+OVA+1

http://www.veoh.com/m/watch.php?v=v17297502h69ndR2K

papa to kiss ova 1 and 2

http://www.veoh.com/m/watch.php?v=v239400hqsxNGp8?h1=papa+to+kiss+in+the+dark+OVA+1

http://www.veoh.com/m/watch.php?v=v240601RjAAeTsp?h1=papa+to+kiss+in+the+dark+OVA+2

Dear Friend,

I didn’t think I’d go back to these thoughts. But they resurfaced again. The thoughts where I wished that I had cancer or that I got into a car accident. It’s not like anything really happened to me to make me wish that, but I just can’t handle this life. I don’t know how people can stay sane in this crazy world we live in. I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. 

Who in their right mind would ever wish to have cancer? I am so lucky to be alive so why can’t I be grateful for it? I don’t know why I’m so fucked up to ever think like that. I have so many things going for me, but I just keep wishing to not exist anymore. I had a friend who passed away from cancer- he had so much more to give to the world. Why couldn’t the world keep him and take me? It’s not fair to him that I’m here wasting away a precious life that I’m sure he wished that he had to spend with his family and friends. I want to be better, but it’s hard to keep hoping that things will be better.

                                                                                                        Love Always,
                                                                                                        Charlie

You found out to be pregnant - Blurb

Yay, another blurb! I’m so happy, I’ve got a few of ideas in my mind and I’m so exciteeed. Hope you like this ones, love you xx.

Ashton
You had a dream that night, it was quite confused but you can remember that there were flowers and people congratulated to you, but you don’t know why. The other thing that you can remember is Ashton’s face, he was so happy and had a few tears in his eyes. “I love you so much, you gave me everything I’ve ever wished. You’re the love of my life.” And then you woke up.
What was happening in that dream? You had no idea, maybe it was an important event like a wedding — but you’re already married with Ashton. When you told about your dream to Ashton, just to know what he thought about it, while you were telling the part of his sweet words you stopped and put a hand on your belly. In that moment, you understood everything, you were pregnant and the complicity look on Ashton’s face made everything more clear.

Calum
In two weeks you were really addicted to Calum, well, not in a sweet way, but in a sexual way. You were so impatient and needy for his touch and all you needed was having sex with Calum and know that him was all yours. The first days, he was the happiest man in the world, everyday when he came back home you two had sex, but then he was so tired and bags under his eyes were more evident.
The boys teased him about that, telling that maybe he’s so talented at bed that you can’t control yourself. But, talking to your bestfriend about that, she told you that the same thing happened to her older sister, but her sister was pregnant. You didn’t think of be pregnant until that moment. Maybe the same thing was happening to you? Well, at least now you that Calum should be prepared for others 9 long months of never-eding sex.

Luke
It was a strange feeling, you never felt this way before for your husband Luke. You couldn’t stand at him anymore, you loved him obviously, but just his presence was annoying you. When he was leaving for a couple of days to go in LA, when he was saying goodbye to you, you can still remember his face when you told him “Finally, I couldn’t live another day with you here!”
When he came back, nothing seemed to change and you didn’t have your period for a whole month. You decided to don’t tell Luke nothing and buy a pregnancy test while he was out with the boys, and when you found out that you were pregnant, you knew that you had a surprise for Luke.

Michael
Everything started when you were “sick”, the only thing that you did was throwing up, but at same time you wanted to eat so many things. You felt weird but you tried your best to ignore it, but Michael understood that something was wrong. He asked to his mum and she told him that maybe you were pregnant, so with shaky knees he went to pharmacy and bought three pregnancy test. You can’t forget the shyly and excited smile on his face when he gave you the tests. He waited nervously out of the bathroom, you did all the three tests but you wanted to wait for the results alone. You sat on the floor and waited, with shaky hands and tears for all those emotions. You saw the results and with a big smile and touched you ran out the bathroom and told Michael that he’ll be a father.

askachangelinginthewrongtime asked:

Aw please don't be sad. I know things are hard for you now. Almost dying must be tragic and horrific. I hope you are okay. I wish the best of luck. Will tell us what happened though?

I was leaving a friend’s house and we had to walk by the pool to get to the gate to her driveway and so I was walking with her with my heavy backpack on and I stopped for a moment to tie my shoe. Someone pushed me into the water and I froze, terrified on what was going to happened to me. I fell in, backpack got too heavy, started to paddle pathetically upward… And all of this was suppose to be a ‘minor’ joke

One thing about this though…. Like, they should have done these scenes in a closed set. This is the kind of spoiler that can’t get out like that. I wished we had seen it happen only during the episode. This is too big of a spoiler, and without the *wtf Zelena is back* in the moment she shows up, what’s the fun of this? They should have been more careful with that spoiler, tbh.. and kept bex mader very well hidden from us.

anarchy15dreams asked:

Do you think there's going to be a 2nd Lorax? Like going into what happened to O'Hare after or maybe going more into the Once-Ler's back story?

Oh gosh, it’s a dream that I wish had higher probability!

It’s not entirely impossible that this movie wouldn’t get a sequel or even a redo! Illumination Entertainment, a branch of Universal, is already planning such with the Cat in the Hat and Grinch reboots. And it (The Lorax) did make a decent amount of money, along with the fact that the franchise is still widely talked about nowadays (even briefly outside of the fandom and science classes).

However, if anyone makes it it’ll be Illumination, and they so far already have a schedule of other Seuss movies, an Adams Family stop motion picture, an adaption of the manga Pluto, etc…

I’ve also never heard of a Seuss movie getting a sequel; heck, I’ve been waiting for a Horton Hatches the Egg movie for ages! 

However, if the Cat in the Hat of all things was able to try and start over, then I have hope that in the future the Lorax could do the same; we just have to give it a looong time.


And hopefully we don’t get any minions-esque sequel where we see EVEN MORE FOREST ANIMALS (and 50% more Thneedville). If anything I’d patiently wait longer if Illumination ever discovers that shoving cutesy cash cows on screen every 5 seconds does nothing but harm the plot. 

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"When I was growing up I was looking for something to fill the hole and for me that something was playing in the band", he says. "Now it’s almost like it’s a requirement. Even if you pretend it doesn’t, some part of you goes into each of the songs you write. So writing songs is something I’ve got to do, or I feel strange - it’s a compulsion!”  (x)

some girl bothers jared about his charity work, jensen changes the course of the conversation when jared starts looking uncomfortable - VanCon ‘09

some girl says jared had a whole season of bad hair days, jensen’s tone immediately becomes snippy and he says she must be saying that because of her bad hair day - SF Con ‘11

some girl says she blames jared for everything, jensen looks disgusted and turns his back on her before getting rid of her as quickly as he can - Vegas Con ‘13 

some girl kisses jared on the lips during her photo op, jensen drops everything where he’s signing autographs and goes to him - AECon 2

jensen is the biggest jared stan and it warms my cold, black heart to know he’d by disgusted by people hating on his best friend (◡‿◡✿)

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Say you’ll r e m e m b e r me

Standing in a nice dress

Staring at the sunset, babe

Red lips and rosy cheeks

Say you’ll see me again even if it’s j u s t in your wildest dreams

w i l d e s t     d r e a m s

the worst email i have ever sent

I’M SORRY, TWO PEOPLE WHO MESSAGED ME ABOUT THIS. I DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. YOUR ASKS WENT AWAY TO THE TUMBLR GRAVEYARD AND I CAN’T GET THEM BACK.

so this isn’t really a “story” so much as a “PSA about email safety,” but when i was in undergrad i wrote my thesis on translations of shakespeare’s hamlet in spain. but in order to do that i needed to actually, you know, get my hands on some of those translations, which were like… hundreds of years old. you can’t really download an epub of the 1772 de la cruz.

  • trust me, i tried. i was like, “yo amazon, what do you have with regard to like 18th-century hamlet translations?” 
  • amazon was like, “….have you considered protein powder shakes? i also have these mini skeeball machines.”

the bad news about buying old-as-balls books is that OLD-AS-BALLS BOOKS ARE SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE.

like? guys. i was buying the $.99 KNOCKOFF MAC-N-CHEESE from the 24-hour mart across the street from my apartment. wtf are you smoking that you think i can afford a $300 book??? my idea of a “fancy dinner out” was getting an EIGHT-DOLLAR PIZZA. i didn’t even get GUAC if the GUAC WAS EXTRA.

  • "what’s your job?"
  • oh, i’m a full-time student taking a higher courseload to complete my double major/double minor on time, but i also have an unpaid internship, but also i work as a tutor that gives me a smooth $350 once every 2 decades but sometimes i babysit for a family in brooklyn??? idk mostly i lay in my bed with all the lights off and pretend i am living in that jean m auel book valley of horses, in which her protagonist ayla rescues a hot dude with the help of her pet mountain lion and they have a lot of sex and fall in love.
  • "oh, i’m still in school! :)"

so in order to afford these books, i applied for a grant through the university. i filled out the 2,000 forms, agreed blindly to terms and conditions, cut off my arm, swore allegiance to a shadow organization, and promised the university the head of my first born.

  • you know, the standard grant application stuff.

 and then i waited. and waited. and waited.

and THEN IT CAME: the email that held my WHOLE THESIS in its lil’ hands. i was in class, which so happened to be with a fine young scholar-gentleman named NOAM for whom i had briefly but seriously considered asking to marry me.

"unfortunately, we are unable to approve your request for funding due to your application being incomplete. we never received your letter of recommendation from your adviser, and as such must deny your application."

……never…..received………………………….what?

  • what?
  • WHAT?
  • I’M SORRY, YOU MUST BE CONFUSED. I MUST BE CONFUSED. WE’RE ALL CONFUSED. WE ALL DRANK A LITTLE TOO MUCH FROM THE CONFUSION PUNCH BOWL AND ARE NOW DRUNKENLY STUMBLING AROUND SAYING THINGS WE DON’T MEAN, LIKE “YOUR GRANT REQUEST HAS BEEN DENIED BECAUSE YOUR ADVISER DIDN’T TURN IN HIS LETTER OF RECOMMENDATION.” HAHA. WE’LL HAVE A REAL LAUGH ABOUT THIS TOMORROW.

i forwarded the email to my adviser. i was very chill. super chill. the chillest. did he think there might have been some kind of housekeeping mistake that i should follow up with or appeal?

"these things happen," he said in his reply. "i’ll look around and see what other grants i can find for you."

i forwarded his email to my roommate prachi. 

"THESE THINGS HAPPEN?????????????" i wrote. “WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? WHAT DOES—WHAT IS THE WHAT. WHAT. I AM ASTOUNDED. ASTOUNDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYTHING IS RUINED FOREVER, I’M GOING TO JUST GO BUY 40 CORGIS AND LIVE WITH THEM IN THE WOODS BECAUSE LIFE IS MEANINGLESS, PROBABLY. “THESE THINGS HAPPEN”????? WHAT A FUCKING ASSHOLE.”

  • ~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~EXCEPT OF COURSE!!!!~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

have you ever done something so monumentally stupid that you can’t even, like, process it????? like your brain just shuts down.

  • "oh, well, i guess we’ll just go ahead and die here," your brain says. "we’ve had a good run. this  feels like a nice comfy way to quietly exit the universe."

as you have probably guessed, i did not send it to my roommate prachi! i sent it to MY ADVISER. this is the PROBLEM with EMAILING WHILE ANGRY. you do NOT ALWAYS CHECK TO MAKE SURE YOUR EMAILS ARE GOING TO THE RIGHT PLACE.

  • ALWAYS CHECK!!!!! ALWAYS CHECK TO MAKE SURE! YOUR EMAILS! ARE GOING! TO THE RIGHT! PLACE!!!!!!!!!!

"oh my GOD," i said, in the middle of class. the professor looked at me. i looked at my computer, and then the scholar-gentleman noam, and then my professor. "OH MY GOD," i said again. "OH NO."

  • here’s the problem with sending emails from most email clients: YOU CAN’T UNDO IT. there is no “SHIT I FUCKED UP, I FUCKED UP I FUCKED UP,” button. there is no, “i just have to take it BACK before he READS IT,” button. you just have to FRANTICALLY send follow up emails that you hope he reads first, with increasingly panicked subject lines like, “oops!” and “i’m so sorry” and “PLEASE DON’T READ ANY OF THE EMAILS I SENT BEFORE THIS ONE” and “GOD IT WAS A MISTAKE OKAY IT WAS A MISTAKE WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES WE’RE ONLY HUMAN.

like what do you even say???

"i’m so sorry. that was—i’m very frustrated right now so i was trying to email my roommate, i’m so horrified, please don’t…read that…other email. please forget you read it. please forget that i exist. please forget the last five years. i am going to do everyone the favor of erasing any and all record that i have ever been in this city or even alive at all. thank you for your time, again, please forget me forever. best, mollyhall ofgeography."

"are you… okay," noam whispered. he looked very concerned.

"SURE AM DOING 100% ABSOLUTELY GREAT," i said. "GONNA QUIT SCHOOL AND BUY LIKE 40 CORGIS, THOUGH. THAT’LL BE FINE. I’M LOOKING FORWARD TO NEVER SEEING OR SPEAKING TO HUMANS AGAIN, JUST DOGS."

s-g noam blinked. “you have to go talk to him,” he decided after class as he kindly walked my dead zombie corpse out of the building while i explained why i needed to be immediately eradicated from academia and the planet writ large. 

"i think you must have misheard that entire story, top to bottom," i said.

"oops, too late, we’re at his offices," said s-g noam, like a fucking SNEAK. i TRUSTED YOU, scholar-gentleman NOAM. "oh look, there he is at the elevators! i’ll wait here for you."

"PLEASE DON’T MAKE ME DO THIS," i begged. s-g noam shoved me in the direction of the elevators. "I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS. YOU INVITED ME TO A JEWISH HOLIDAY PARTY ONCE. DIDN’T THAT MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU."

"mollyhall, i’m glad you’re here, let’s go to my office," said my adviser, looking concerned. "i got your email."

"oh," i said. "i sure do wish you hadn’t."

ETA (YOU GUYS SEEM VERY STRESSED ABOUT THIS): i don’t remember what happened in the meeting bc to be honest i was blacked out with fear the whole time, BUT when i came to an hour later he had agreed to fund my thesis out of his own budget??? just… like, gave me money for free, no forms or human sacrifices required???

"HOW did you do that?" noam asked.

DUNNO. JUST DID. THE UNIVERSE FELT BAD AND DECIDED TO THROW ME A BONE, I GUESS.

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Bioshock movie concept art
      ∟cancelled due to concerns regarding the budget and the R rating

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And when I die, don’t bury me
beneath the western sky, on the lone prairie.

Finally finished my part of the art trade with the talented darkimperialblue. Thank you so much for this opportunity and for your patience!

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Happy 34th birthday,Joseph Gordon-Levitt !

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i got two requests for the bellarke reunion after mount weather SO!

(this little comic is full of wishful thinking and not what i actually think will happen but a girl can dream)

pls ignore the inconsistency of bellamy’s face.

RIP Sojin & The Issues of the K-Pop Trainee System

Today, we were sad to learn that the exceptionally talented and charismatic unnie to the DSP female trainees, Sojin, has committed suicide on Feb 24.

The reasons appeared to be DSP Media cutting her from their new girl group set to debut in April contrary to her 5 years training under them and proving to be a talented and extremely popular candidate during her run on the "Kara Project".

While it would seem cold and mean to be analyzing the issues of the K-Pop Trainee System through the death of Sojin (hence I made a separate post to commemorate her), this is an issue I have long considered and what happened to Sojin only furthers my resolve to discuss this controversial issue.

[This will be a long post so continue if you wish/are interested in the topic]

K-POP TRAINEE SYSTEM - THE GOOD

The K-Pop trainee system has had many benefits to the music industry in Korea. It guarantees a certain level of abilities and talent upon debut - so it’s exceptionally rare to see people who cannot sing making it big in K-pop (cough cough America cough cough). Moreover, it makes the industry so much more competitive as each company has so much more control over developing their artists before sending them to fight on the chart rankings. We see the K-Pop trainee system giving rise to small/new companies who created successful groups and singers to actually have an opportunity to fight the top dogs (see Cube, Woolim and Starship) while companies who did not keep their game going (sorry but DSP you are one of them) to drop in ranks too. It provides a much fairer playing ground for the companies and their artists compared to music industries elsewhere waiting to sign “the one” who will get their company known but probably won’t stay because the company never trained them and has no reason to be loyal. This is one of the major reasons for the massive growth in the Korean music industry in the recent decade - the increasingly refined trainee system.

K-POP TRAINEE SYSTEM - THE BAD

However, while the K-pop trainee system promises some form of free training and a chance for anyone who has the talent and successfully auditioned to debut, it has many MANY flaws when it comes to the individual trainees.

1. Well-Being vs Profit-Making

Firstly, it places too much power in the hands of the company. We have to remember that while there are really kind bosses like JYP and the CEO of Big Hit, companies are in the end, profit-maximizing machines. A company is made of various board members and if the CEO does not deliver the results i.e. the $, he or she can easily be replaced. Hence, in the end of the day, the amount of care and love towards the individual artists and trainees and their well-being will sadly almost always be trumped by the need to quickly pay off the training fees and make some dough. There are many examples of artist maltreatment as seen in the recent TS and B.A.P lawsuit or the more infamous SM ones.

2. Psychological & Physical Harms to Youth

Secondly, aside from always having money outweigh the well being of the individual, placing the upbringing of children and teens in a profit maximizing cut throat environment is just on balance bad. The ages 10-20 are crucial in shaping who the kid grows up to be. By placing impressionable and dream chasing youth into a competitive environment where their dreams can dissolve in any moment is not only harsh but hugely detrimental to their mental and physical growth. I don’t want this to sound overly like a thesis paper but I think we can all agree that children and teens are just not mentally equipped to be thrown into this difficult and pressurizing situation. This sucks all the more knowing that they will also lose their childhood and youth in the process. And time can never turn back so once they traded it for the trainee days - it’s gone.

But let’s say you don’t buy any of the 2 huge flaws in artist well-being and obstacles in a healthy up-bringing, let us not forget how many people actually make it. The K-pop trainee system creates an environment where only the best of the best (at least in the company’s view) can debut. In a selective system, it is only realistic that more people fail to make it compared to the numbers who do succeed.

3. Not Everyone Makes It & What Happens Afterwards

Which leads on to the third point that really pains my heart - what happens to the trainees who just don’t make it? They have spent all their years of childhood and youth for what? For nothing. But to make matters worst, they have traded their education for time in training. Similar to football players who don’t make it through the ranks of youth systems to the pro team (or minor league baseball players if you don’t get what I mean), K-pop trainees who don’t make it simply will be too far behind their peers in society to get a good education and a decent job to reintegrate in society. What makes it even worst are trainees and idols from disbanded groups who have already gained public attention. They can’t go back to being a nobody. People in the streets recognize them. They just can’t have a normal life anymore.

It pains me to write this as I can imagine Sojin having gone through all this training and even gained a bit of fame through the “Kara Project”, now being cut from a group she was supposed to debut in. How can she go on and live a normal life again being a known figure and having spent all her precious youth toiling away in the dance studio? Remember, her parents also did not support her decision to be an idol.

We must remember Sojin is one of many many idol trainees in Korea. One of many similar stories. One of those who didn’t make it. One of those who gained hope and support through the trainee system when their family and those dear to them did not and could not support them, but lost it all once the system itself gave up on them. To be thrown into the Korean society where any psychological weakness and illness is frowned upon - to a place where one cannot get help if they can’t take it anymore.

We heard Sojin’s story because she was known. How many other stories have we not heard of? How many more boys and girls are currently suffering behind the facade of the K-pop Success Stories?

We will never really know.

But what we hope to know, is that companies should all try to do something to improve their trainee systems - to provide more support during the process, but also support afterwards.

Dear K-pop Companies,

You are not just playing with money or innocent dreams of a child,

You are playing with lives.

Sincerely,

A K-pop Fan

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happy 2000th day since debut, lee jieun!!
it has been amazing watching you grow over the past five years, both musically and as a person. your talents are increasing immensely and i’m so proud to see you being recognized for each and every one of them! through all the ups and downs, you’ve always kept your head up and stayed positive and it’s that attitude that helps you keep going and inspires us all! i’m so excited to see what you have in store for us for the next two thousand days :)
we love you, iu! ♡

it also just so happens that on iu’s 2000th day, this blog reached 10,000 followers!!! honestly, i really can’t believe that there are ten thousand people who see posts from this blog on their dash but i sincerely thank each and every one of you who clicked that follow button! more than anything, i’m just so elated that you guys like iu enough to follow a blog solely for her! ♡ i also really want to thank julia for helping me with this over the last few months. real life can get very stressful and i hadn’t been as attentive here as i once used to be, so thank you so much in helping keep this blog active :) i hope that you all continue to give iu and iu-loveattack your love, thank you very much!