congrats kri you deservve it
In all h9nesty, I really 6eg t9 differ with that statement. I’ve really d9ne n9thing 9f value. I 6utt int9 pe9ples’ c9nversati9ns, I whine a69ut life like I expect s9me9ne t9 pity me and make everything 6etter, and generally talk t9 a very select few pe9ple. Which right n9w, I’m regretting. 6ecause let’s see here.
Eridan rejected me. Karkat rejected me.
Gamzee isn’t interested, and he d9esn’t care at all that it’s 6eing auspisticed s9 that may very well 6e a rejecti9n in itself.
Um6ra may 6e slightly interested en9ugh t9 have fancied the th9ught, 6ut she has a m9irail already, which makes things a little awkward. Especially 6ecause he’s d9ing an a6s9lutely shitty 69tch j96, and she said she can’t really handle him. It’s a h9rri6le relati9nship and yet I d9n’t feel like I’m w9rth winning her 9ver, s9 it might as well 6e chalked up t9 an9ther rejecti9n.
I’m m9re 9r less fairly certain that Aradia and J9hn 69th feel a little awkward ar9und me right n9w, and frankly, I d9n’t 6lame either 9f them. I’ve 6een a rather difficult assh9le a69ut the fact J9hn is a human and wants t9 6e my m9irail (6ut h9nestly, I just d9n’t feel like humans w9uld understand the 6ase instincts in any quadrants, and he w9n’t all9w f9r any r99m t9 make s9me c9mpr9mise with9ut c9mplaint; n9t t9 menti9n I’ve 9nly kn9wn him f9r the d9wnside 9f a week, s9 that’s a **little t99 s99n** t9 try t9 get int9 s9me9ne’s pale quadrant!). And then I’ve just 6een a general drag when Aradia was ar9und and a rather misera6le h9st.
And n9w I’m actually **afraid** t9 6ranch 9ut and talk t9 pe9ple I d9n’t usually talk t9 6ecause I’m m9re than fairly certain I’m g9ing t9 end up in the same p9siti9ns all 9ver again. I’m tired 9f my 9wn 6ullshit, and then here’s every9ne else still existing within my vicinity.
What ann9ys me m9st is all 9f these pe9ple will sh9w a neutral, passing kindness when I’m in a medi9cre / decent m99d, 6ut if I’m in a g99d m99d it seems every9ne has t9 attack me f9r S9METHING, and then when I finally snap at every9ne f9r 6eing ign9rant piss ants, suddenly every9ne is rushing t9 care again.
I d9n’t kn9w why every9ne’s here t9 put up with me when this is all that’s g9ing 9n.