As of right now in Idaho you have officially been 21 for forty minutes!! whoooo. Happy Happy Birthday my love!
Also, I forgot to mention it in yesterdays post, Happy five months! I can’t believe it’s already been that long. But at the same time I can’t believe it’s only been that long. I’ve loved every moment of these last five months with you. Well, except the being separated part. Besides that, it has been a dream come true!
Today is the 4th of July. I wish I could have celebrated it with you. We’ll have many more to share though. We didn’t really do all that much. Just barbecued some steaks and enjoyed the sunshine. After it got dark we lit a fire. Eventually everyone left and it was just me. I was staring up at what stars were visible in this awful city sky and I noticed the little dipper. It reminded me of a cold day in January. We were walking back from dinner with the gang when I looked up at the sky and noticed it. I pointed it out to you and you said you couldn’t see it. You drew me in close as I tried to show you where it was. This was before we were dating so Brian and Kimmy made a big deal over it but kept on walking. We stood there for a moment, hot chocolate in hand, and stared at the sky together. My heart was beating so fast. There’s something, and I can’t really put my finger on it, that I love about remembering how giddy you made me feel. I often replay those moments we shared before we were dating, just so I can try to return to the feelings I had. I want so badly to remember those things exactly how they happened.
Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you constantly. You know that burning sensation you get in the pit of your stomach when you’ve gone too long without eating? That’s how I’m starting to feel about missing you. I’ve gone too long without being embraced by you and it’s starting to make it’s self known physically. Sometimes my body literally aches because I miss you so much and the emotions start to take their toll. I can’t wait to see you again. Just another month. It’s not that long, or so I tell myself.
I love you so much my darling. I hope that your day is filled with blessings and God shows you how special you are to him.
With all the love I possess,