coda for 10x03 (ao3)
Cas and Hannah are five miles away from the bunker when Cas’s phone rings, startling him out of his thoughts and the endless road in front of him. He digs around in his pocket with his free hand until he finds it. He fishes it out of his pocket just as the screen lights up and Dean’s number flashes across it. Cas answers immediately, holding the phone between his cheek and shoulder.
“Hey Cas,” Dean says softly, relieved.
“Are you alright?” Cas asks, worry prevalent in his tone as he pulls the car off the highway and onto the gravel shoulder.
“No… I mean, yeah… I just…I…” Dean stutters out, sighing heavily into the phone.
He sounds so down-trodden, the weight of the world on his shoulders. With everything that’s happened in the past few hours he can only imagine the tornado of thoughts rushing around in Dean’s head.
“Talk to me, what’s wrong?” Cas says, gently. Such a simple sentence but those five words open the floodgates.
“Sam’s back now, which is fine, it’s great. I’m surprised he’s even here at all considering what I almost did to him. Hell, he even brought me food, burgers and pie, Cas. I don’t fucking deserve that. And I wanna talk to him, to apologize and try to make things right again but he needs his space, which I get, but I… I don’t wanna be alone. I can’t be alone right now, I might do something stupid. There’s so much going on in my head, it’s so dark and I fucked up, I fucked up so bad so I just… I just…” Dean lets out a shaky breath, “I.. I need you here, please.”
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