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THE CURE - THE LAST DAY OF SUMMER

Nothing I am, nothing I dream
Nothing is new
Nothing I think or believe in or say
Nothing is true

Used to be so easy
I never even tried
Yeah, it used to be so easy

But the last day of summer
Never felt so cold
The last day of summer
Never felt so old

All that I have, all that I hold
All that is wrong
All that I feel for or trust in or love
All that is gone

Used to be so easy
I never even tried
Yeah, it used to be so easy

But the last day of summer
Never felt so cold
The last day of summer
Never felt so old
The last day of summer
Never felt so cold
Never felt so

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GRADIVA - short film by LEOS CARAX

Ditty of First Desire

In the green morning
I wanted to be a heart.
A heart.

And in the ripe evening
I wanted to be a nightingale.
A nightingale.

(Soul,
turn orange-colored.
Soul,
turn the color of love.)

In the vivid morning
I wanted to be myself.
A heart.

And at the evening’s end
I wanted to be my voice.
A nightingale.

Soul,
turn orange-colored.
Soul,
turn the color of love. 

- Federico García Lorca
Blue Rotunda

I am tired of having hands
she said
I want wings –

But what will you do without your hands
to be human?

I am tired of human
she said
I want to live on the sun –

Pointing to herself:

Not here.
There is not enough
warmth in this place.
Blue sky, blue ice

the blue rotunda
lifted over
the flat street –

and then, after a silence:

I want
my heart back
I want to feel everything again –

That’s what
the sun meant: it meant
scorched –

It is not finally
interesting to remember.
The damage

is not interesting.
No one who knew me then
is still alive.

My mother
was a beautiful woman –
they all said so.

I have to imagine
everything
she said

I have to act
as though there is actually
a map to that place:

when you were a child –

And then:

I’m here
because it wasn’t true; I

distorted it –

I want she said
a theory that explains
everything

in the mother’s eye
the invisible
splinter of foil

the blue ice
locked in the iris –

Then:

I want it
to be my fault
she said
so I can fix it –

Blue sky, blue ice,
street like a frozen river

you’re talking
about my life
she said

except
she said
you have to fix it

in the right order
not touching the father
until you solve the mother

a black space
showing
where the word ends

like a crossword saying
you should take a breath now

the black space meaning
when you were a child –

And then:

the ice
was there for your own protection

to teach you
not to feel –

the truth
she said

I thought it would be like
a target, you would see

the center –

Cold light filling the room.

I know where we are
she said
that’s the window
when I was a child

That’s my first home, she said
that square box –
go ahead and laugh.

Like the inside of my head:
you can see out
but you can’t go out –

Just think
the sun was there, in that bare place

the winter sun
not close enough to reach
the children’s hearts

the light saying
you can see out
but you can’t go out

Here, it says,
here is where everything belongs

[From Averno]

- Louise Glück