So, two things.
I know, I know. This happens every time I watch 08.17. I physically and literally cannot help myself. I also watch like 35 minutes of the entire episode while standing in front of the television clutching my warm mug of tea directly over my heart just to make sure the blood runs warm enough to keep me alive throughout the experience.
Thing One: Will we ever meet again?
HOW HORRIBLE is that song. I grew up on my parents’ music, more easy listening than anything else because my parents didn’t have distinct personalities until they finally split up (my father still doesn’t, he is a sitcom-fueled automaton). And that song wasn’t like a rock song like the show normally brings us, it was on the fucking Mix stations, those horrible ones they only listen to at workplaces with the ‘hits from yesterday AND today’ you know. And I hate that song. The episode didn’t change that for me. What the show did was utilize the song perfectly as an outro. I’ve talked about how my spirit fucking glides over the mountains to search for Castiel’s bus as it never appears on the other side of the tunnel, but that fucking line, of all in the song is what got to me, originally. Because I do spoil myself and I did know at that point in Season Gr8 that Cas would be back, but I can never keep it straight in my head exactly which episode it’s supposed to be. So will we ever meet again? Yikes. Go fuck yourself. [EXIT over mountains FADE TO BLACK]
GO. fuck. yourself.
Thing Two: Dogma.
The first time I saw Dogma was in junior year of high school. My English teacher was also my Criminal Law teacher and he didn’t-quite-assign a viewing of Dogma, more strongly recommended it. He was our dogg, he was the dopest person alive, you’ll just have to trust me on this (come senior year we skipped like 90% of our classes to hang out in his room and he loved us so he wrote us passes constantly and only stayed at the school to watch us graduate, he loved us).
What I remembered of Dogma, until I entered the View Askewniverse fandom and started writing in it and finally saw it again, was the bus scene.
Bartleby and Loki are two disgraced angels exiled to Wisconsin. When they decide to throw off the shackles and escape, they take a bus out of town and that goes to shit when Loki up and massacres all the sinners on the bus.
I didn’t even remember why until I saw the movie again. For years, just the fact that Loki opened fire on a couple of cheaters and then danced off the bus to a Run DMC song was all I remembered. But Loki is the reason the whole movie happens. He has to convince Bartleby that they’re restless and that he’s got a good plan to get back into heaven.
Loki is genuinely Angry. Bartleby, it turns out, is even Angrier and we don’t even know it yet.
When Cas gets on that bus at the end of Goodbye, Stranger, he’d just beaten the pulp out of his best friend.
That ending on the bus is so OMINOUS for so many fucking reasons. Not just the glide over the mountains and the fact that they eschew the regular Supernatural ending, following a road, to instead dissolve into mist. Not just because of the song. Not just because what the fuck is an all-powerful, recently-liberated angel doing on a fucking bus?? But, for me, it was also an immediate echo of that scene in Dogma, the only scene about the movie that had really stuck in my head since my youth.
Loki loses it, is done with his treatment, is done with being restrained and put down when he’s so righteous and powerful. AND ALL I WANTED TO KNOW was what would happen on that bus with Cas sitting there, a nuke in his fucking satchel, Dean’s blood pounded into his knuckles, and who knew when we’d see him again.
Will we ever meet again.
FUCK YOU. GOSH.