Just to clarify, because I saw some discussion today:
02.12, “Nightshifter,” is my favorite episode. 08.17, “Goodbye, Stranger” ranks, not high, but it certainly ranks as a good ep.
I simply tag things “i hate everything” because there exist, upon this earth, episodes of television shows that make my insides hurt and my head ache and my heart throb and want to quit working. Any episode that I write more than one post of meta about, I can assure you, I fucking love.
Though I do Dean/Cas like woah, the fact that the show pushed Meg/Cas doesn’t make me mad. I’m not like rabidly against the concept (though I do not actively ‘ship it) and I maintain like I do ad nauseam that the showmakers have to push a het pairing because the network requires it. I’m not saying there’s a universe in which it wouldn’t work. They set it up nice and straight (lol) and killed Meg off and so now we’ve got this hanging thing that could-have-been.
But let’s get real. They’re probably, what? Gonna stuff another demon into Meg’s vessel to tempt Cas or something? Just a guess. One of a hundred things that could happen, up to and including Meg’s inexplicable resurrection because IT’S SUPERNATURAL WHY THE FUCK NOT?! NOBODY HAS TO DIE EXCEPT WHEN THEY DIE AND THEN THEY CAN DAMN WELL UN-DIE!
Completely ASIDE from the obvious Dean/Cas goldmine, the episode itself is a good episode. It’s well-written. It’s fine. Again, I’m nuts about Nightshifter. I have a certain set of priorities. Now, out of all Dean/Cas episodes? Goodbye, Stranger is probably my favorite. It’s short on pairing-specific material, but what there is is MAJORLY fucking important.
Anyway, what I mean to convey is that I’m one of those people who doesn’t care that the episode is hella Meg/Cas. You’re watching the show. I’ve got my goggles glued to my face. We just see things differently. And what I see is all fine and good.
I also think it’s entirely conceivable that Cas — EVEN IF he were, actually, For REAL for REALS interested in a relationship with Dean — would nurture an attraction and a possible connection to Meg. He’s basically been kicked out of his entire species. He’s shunned. He’s been manipulated to the point where Naomi’s goal was to turn him into nothing but a hand, a tool, a machine. Basically, the price for him returning to his species — his family — was that he had to stop having love (or at least betraying that he felt love) or concern for anyone outside of God and his Angels.
FRIENDLY REMINDER that Dean and Cas (at that point) are not of the same species. That makes Meg and Cas no more outlandish.
What makes Meg and Cas unbelievable specifically to *me* are the things that Meg has done to the Winchesters, her ripped-apart, likely horrifying true form/appearance, and her own devotion to Lucifer.
God didn’t work out for Cas, just like Lucifer didn’t work out for Meg. That’s a valid connection between them. They were both failed by their fathers. Cas thinks God isn’t looking out for him and Meg now knows that Lucifer would have obliterated demons after humans like Crowley predicted. But, again, her father walked the earth. She at least stood by his side. She KNOWS it’s possible for him to be around. She KNOWS Lucifer is real. And I don’t know that Meg has ever renounced her father in plain language. She knows she has to look out for herself now (well, knew, past tense, whatever) but, unless I’m not recalling correctly, she’s never had a “fuck you to the sky” moment like Cas had when Joshua admitted that God wasn’t interested in helping at all.
Meg has had it rough since Lucifer got locked back up, but she was also on her own before.
Cas got flat-out abandoned. For as much as he never heard from God before (according to Anna, only 4 angels - 3 plus Joshua - have ever spoken to God and I think we can safely assume Cas was never one of them) he at least had this great huge group mind. His entire species, his whole family, together in this belief in God and their mission. Meg didn’t get dropped like that. She’s a lot more used to the abuse than Cas is.
And, again, I maintain that her true demonic form, the one she’s stuffed into various vessels, including Sam, has got to be fucking horrifying. Remember Dean’s reaction to seeing underneath Ruby’s skin? I’m guessing all demons are that kind of bile-inducing horror show. That’s what they get turned into. That’s their species. And I can’t imagine, even if angels, in their true forms, are complicated or really jacked looking, that they look as grotesque as demons. There’s probably an ingrained repulsion. And while I’m sure Cas can choose to see Meg’s more attractive face, he’s got to know what’s underneath and how twisted it is.
I could go on if I weren’t in pain. I just wanted to say that when, if ever, I say that I hate Goodbye, Stranger, I don’t hate it for what it is. I hate myself for needing it so much.