365 Day 4: January 5, 2012

So I didn’t talk about this much but I had to move back home. I’ve been back home a little bit under a month. The original plan was for my brother and I to get an apartment together but as we we’re getting ready to sign the lease I took a really good hard look at my finances and figured out I would have less than $200 a month for gas, groceries, and whatever other miscellaneous bills I had. So I couldn’t do it and it really upset me. I was crying off and on for days about this because I really wanted to have an apartment with my brother. He in the end decided not to get an apartment on his own either. (He was supposed to for other reasons but I can’t really talk about that on tumblr. It’s really private family matters.) I feel bad about this whole ordeal for our would be landlord because we let him down. It’s kind of stupid. I know I shouldn’t feel bad because we didn’t sign a lease but we we’re going to, and that apartment would have been beautiful.

So now I’m back home and I’m not living here for free. I’m giving my mom $200 a pay period to cover my health insurance, car insurance and “rent”. It’s not that bad. I don’t know how I managed to live on my own so long. Seriously. I mean I came up broke every month after I payed my bills (but I payed my bills first so I guess that’s a good reason to be broke) but I still somehow made it. I may have went a little hungry some nights and had to scrounge up the money for gas but I did it somehow.

Anyway being on my own taught me somethings. It’s not as easy as it looks. I had to make a lot of sacrifices. I couldn’t go out as often as I’d like to with my friends (not that we do that a lot anyway). I couldn’t buy those dresses that I wanted. I had to save my tip money if I wanted to do something in the future (and that’s hard when you don’t have money to begin with). I couldn’t go back to school if I wanted to. I was stuck. However, the freedom it brought me and the way my mom and my relationship improved is a blessing. I get along so well with my mom now. I’ll never take her for granted again. 

Anyway this is what my bed room looks like right now. I have plans to make it mine and make it a sort of studio apartment but for right now my plan is to unpack and get it rearranged. My pastor helped me move all my furniture here, but my couch, chair, and futon frame would not fit up the stairs. All I have is my mattress and my dresser. Ahh such is life in an old house.

That’s all for now. I got a call to go into work early and my thoughts are spinning around in my head so I shouldn’t be talking anyway. 

Day 5: something you would change about the world

There are so many things to change in this world,we all know that. Living here is never easy, never perfect. There’s always something missing,always not enough. Always have something you wish you have or something you wish to be gone. So,if i am able to change the world, I will make it simpler, the way it used to be (genesis).

  • No rich nor poor.
  • No material things.
  • People who are God-fearing.
  • A place where there is only love and peace.
  • A place that only believe in ONE GOD.

Bibingka (rice cake) in January. There was this minor story that during the Bataan death march, the locals would sneak ‘em to the marching POWs #01052012 (Taken with Instagram at The Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf)