01.16

01.16 Shadow (Part 3/4)

Previously

Sam starts by telling Dean about Meg and the alter.

(Oh, man, Sam’s eye rolls at Dean are some of my favorite things.)

Sam explains that she was talking to something that was giving her orders.

Then Dean tells Sam the reason why he wanted to talk. They missed the fact that both victims were actually born in Lawrence, Kansas.

They speculate that it could be the demon that killed their mom.

They agree they shouldn’t tip off Meg. They need to stake out the warehouse and find out what is going to meet her.

Dean tries calling John, but—SURPRISE—voice mail.

(I think thinking about his dad makes Dean need a long sadness bath.)

Sam has ransacked the trunk to get every type of tool they might need. They don’t really know what to expect.

Dean: Big night.

Sam: Yeah. You nervous?

Dean: No. No. Why, are you?

Sam: No. No way. God, could you imagine if we actually found that damn thing? That demon?

Dean: Let’s not get ahead of ourselves, all right?

Sam: I know. I’m just sayin’, what if we did? What if this whole thing was over tonight?

Sam: Go back to school—just be a person again.

Sam: Yeah, once we’re done hunting the thing.

Dean: Huh.

Sam: Why, is there somethin’ wrong with that?

Dean: No. No, it’s, uh, great. Good for you.

Sam: I mean, what are you gonna do when it’s all over?

Dean: It’s never gonna be over. There’s gonna be others. There’s always gonna be somethin’ to hunt.

Sam: But there’s got to be somethin’ that you want for yourself—

Sam: Dude, what’s your problem?

Dean: I mean, why do you think I came and got you at Stanford in the first place?

Sam: ‘Cause Dad was in trouble. ‘Cause you wanted to find the thing that killed Mom.

Dean: Yes, that, but it’s more than that, man. You and me and Dad—I mean, I want us….I want us to be together again.

Sam: I’d do anything for you. But things will never be the way they were before.

Sam: I don’t want them to be.

Sam: Dean, when this is all over, you’re gonna have to let me go my own way.

Ugh. I think I might need my own sadness bath. Dean just wants them to be a family. And he just wants his family to stop ABANDONING him. Is that too much to ask?!?!?

Next Up: Confrontation

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So I can't sleep

Therefor I have fantisised a little - waiting for the Sandman to transform the pictures in my head into a dream.
I’ve been thinking about someone I used to know. I thought of facial expressions and body language and where we would be if we met. One thing that took me time to realize though, is that I’ve forgotten her voice. I do no longer remember it. And it’s so strange. It makes me wonder if we have ever talked for more than a few minutes at a time with each other.