Dark!John Fic Recs
requested by @clairvoyantsam
if you’re a John!fan, this is not your list!
What Doesn’t Kill Us Normal doesn’t mean anything when it comes to Winchesters, and they do what they have to to keep the team together. (This fic includes abuser!Dean but is one of my ‘faves’) pretty dark, I loved the Dean’s pov. fucked up stuff!)
Daddy, Please, No
After Mary’s death, John is very lonely, and he
can’t help but notice how attracted he is to Sam (who is eight). So,
feeling absolutely disgusted with himself, John attempts to drink his
feelings away. But that doesn’t help; only makes them stronger, and
harder to control. One night, while he’s drunk out of his mind, he goes
into Sam’s room and starts touching him. And once he’s started, he does
it every night, his actions getting bolder until he finally rapes Sam
(who is now eleven). After the rape, Sam becomes anti-social, and jumpy.
He won’t let anyone but John touch him (only because he’s scared to
flinch away from John). Not even Dean. And Dean noticed it, and goes to
investigate, trying to get Sam to open up to him. And when he doesn’t,
he scopes out his room at night, finally catching John in the act. Once
John’s been caught, Dean takes Sam and runs to Bobby’s house
Bitter Trust Dean went to college instead of Sam. After being abused by his father for 2 years, Sam goes to Dean and asks for help under the pretense of finding their father who isn’t actually missing because he misses Dean and wants to be with him again.
It’s Better to Ask Forgiveness Than to Beg Permission
(GEN) Sam has a special request.
The Long Way Home Dean makes a decision to force his Dad to become the father his brother needs, but when he finds out how badly his plan backfires, it’s going to take everything he has with the help of his friends to bring Sammy home. (GEN)
Waking Up!verse (WIP) John Winchester isn’t the best father in the world, and Dean made a deal with a demon long before Sam was stabbed.
Splintered Dean is always in the middle, struggling to hold his family together, to take care of his father and Sam…no matter what that means…no matter what that costs.
Sins of the Father Sam get hurt during a hunt and Dean comes to realize some things about his feelings for his brother and some ugly truths about his father
The Bringer Sam has a special destiny, but is it for good or for evil? Dean may be the deciding factor. Wincest. And a happy ending was had by all except for the two who don’t get a happy ending. What the hell. Nobody liked them anyway.
Between the Shadows (GEN) Follows Devil’s Trap. The Winchester family is
faced with something it never saw coming not even in their worst fears,
Mother Mary Comes to Me
Sam sometimes reminds John of his mother. When
John sees more than a resemblance, he lets himself believe something
that can’t possibly be true. Sam pays the price
Playing Monsters It was just a game … a game that those boys used to play. They’d pretend that they were monster hunters, that they were some kind of heroes. The problem was that they started to believe that all of that nonsense was real, you see.
If There’s Life After This Sam and Dean go to another school while on yet
another hunt, expecting the usual blending in, research, killing
whatever’s hurting the local populace, and burning rubber out of town
when they’re done. But what happens when they discover that some of the
worst monsters are plain, old humans? What happens when one of their own
is the victim? Will Sam and Dean be able to pick up the pieces of their
The Touch of His Hand Sam is fourteen when his psychic ability manifests, in the form of powerful, uncontrollable visions that leave him incapacitated by pain. Fear of his father’s reaction to having a son with supernatural powers leaves him only one person to turn to: his brother Dean. As his feelings for Dean grow stronger and the visions take more out of him, both brothers will have to make decisions on what is important, and where you go when you have nowhere left to turn
The Comfort of Brothers
Dean takes care of Sam after John abuses him.
With These Broken Wings I’m Fallin’ Dean has spent his life following in his father’s footsteps, hunting down evil and never getting close to anyone. All of that changes though when he meets Sam.
To Fight in the Shade
During a hot summer in a cabin in a remote part of
Alabama, John trains Sam and Dean for their future as hunters. Dad
expects the boys to pay attention and work hard. Dean loves hunting and
is happy as can be. The only thing that makes him mad is the fact that
Sam is as unhappy as he can be because Sam doesnt love hunting or
anything to do with it. To Sam, its the summer from hell because the
only thing he wants to do is go to school and play soccer. But theyre
not in school, and Dad thinks soccer will attract the wrong type of
attention so hes forbidden soccer to Sa
Tell Me To Stay
Sam has been accepted into Stanford. He finally
tells Dean while the two of them are holed up in a rainy little town,
Dad investigating a simple hunt and burn that Dean opts out of. What
follows is Dean’s need to decide on his loyalties, and confront just
what his job is really about.
Freak Camp ‘Verse The same old Sam/Dean love story, with a darkfic twist. Sam grows up in a concentration camp for monsters, and Dean is raised as an only child and a hunter. Together, they make each other human.
Sin’s a Curse and the Cure Is Worse John finds out and loses it, violently
Pieces of Us John Winchester loved his son, Dean, desired him and cherished him. He was the perfect boy. John Winchester despised his offspring, Sam, hated him with a passion because of how his late wife and now his eldest boy loved the whore. So, John took his due from the slut and made sure that Sam understood that it was all his fault
Dying From a Broken Heart The big fight between John and Sam…can Sam’s heart take it?