Five Days. And some reflections
Not going to be a typical post cause I kinda sorta took the day off. Of course i did questions. But for the most part, I chilled. Think i really needed it, specially after the last few days. And I think for the first time after ages I feel like I am actually getting the hang of it and may be finals wont be so bad.
Anyway so i had to run a few errands and after that, I sat and for the most part, binged on blogs. There was a certain blog that i used to follow back in second year (so three years ago) and I felts like going back and checking how it was going. It’s on blogspot so I don’t really get notifications.
Anyway so turns out the person had stopped blogging since last year for whatever reason. So while I was at it, I went back to their posts from 2010 and I realised, I really didn’t like them. And I don’t know if it’s cause I have matured more as a medic myself or it’s because I have been fortunate enough to come in contact with some very sincere physicians and residents or what but this person just doesnt seem to…care about their patients! Don’t get me wrong, he does his job well, double checks everything. But it’s clear from his post that his job is just that for him: a job. And he hates it. He wishes he was somewhere else doing some other job. If someone hopeful premed went to him for advice, he would just shoo them away. And I dunno exactly how to explain it but it’s just the vibe, ya know?
Another thing I noticed about his posts was they were so darn negative! After about 20 posts I got frustrated and left cause they just really annoyed me. I mean, I get that residency can be draining and that may get you annoyed at your patients but wayfaringmd is also a resident. cranquis is a physician. And while we all complain about our patients, everyone is still sincere. I guess when you learn how to differentiate between those who are here cause they want to and those who are here for the pay check and the glory of being called a “doctor”, you just can’t tolerate the latter.
Having said that, I realise I whine quite a lot on my blog and spread lots of negativity. I need to stop doing that. Negativity is a cunning cycle. So I am going to try and complain a little less. And appreciate a little more.
Tomorrow shall be diving back into the studying again.