It’s almost laughable (if it weren’t so sad) how bad I am at my job.  Like I could be a brain surgeon or a chef for how unqualified I am for this position.  Advanced calculus?  I didn’t even pass high school Algebra.  I was an English major.  WTF am I doing here???

I sent out 982 job applications over the weekend.  It was pretty much all I did.  Looking for a job has become a full time job in and of itself.  I’m pretty sure I’m more qualified for any other profession than the one I’m in.

There’s not much worse than feeling useless and worthless on a constant basis.  Like no matter what you do things never get better.  To be told that everything you do is wrong like you’re the stupidest person on the planet.

That’s only for 10 hours a day though, then I get to fight traffic for 2 hours and go home to an empty apartment with no one to love.  

I wish I had a job that I hated but wasn’t awful at, like everyone else.  I wish my job was just a means to an end and I had anything else going for me, like maybe some other reason to live.