Sitting on tumblr for an hour, then reading wintergirls to fall asleep for a nap = strange dreams. I dreamed I was at school and hanging out with my friends…. but I was quite literally a skeleton in skin. The thinnest of the thinspo. But I was happy. I felt loved, my friends actually cared about me, we were goofing off doing stupid stuff and laughing. But there was a girl next to me. She was my best friend. She was even skinnier than me (which was barely possible), but in the dream I couldn’t exactly see her face. It was dark, like her eyes were dark, like shadows even though the room was very well lit. And in the dream I felt like I had to please her, like I was scared of her, yet she was still my best friend. It was Ana. 

I know this came largely from all those “Relationship with Ana” posts and such, which really describe “her” like that. But it was scary real-feeling. I’m not really sure what to make of it.  I mean, it was pretty clear. I was thin, people accepted me and loved me, and I was happy. But she was there reminded me, like I was HER friend and only hers, and she was judging my every move with those deep shadow eyes. So yeah, not sure what to think about or react to this. But it was kinda scary accurate, too….