Conquering the past.
Is it because I continue to hold onto the past that makes me unable to look to the future? I’m so lost and confused right now; and I can’t help, but wonder why? Sure, it might be selfish of me to push you away when I know that you would do anything for me. Trust me, I’d drop anything to come to your side if you ever needed me, too; but there’s something just holding me back right now. I can’t put my finger on it, but it’s stopping me from moving forward. I know you hate me for it because it seems like I don’t care or that I’m cold and I promise that’s not what I’m trying to be. Sure, I come off as unrelenting and it probably hurts you that I’m so adamant on being austere.
Somewhere along the line, my love has grown cold… It’s my fault and as much as I’m wanting to revive it, it’ll just have to take some time. I’m sorry you don’t feel loved or embraced by me. I’m sorry that it seems like I’m distant. I remember those promises we made and I’ll take it to my grave because I won’t ever forget. You’re my running river when my world seems empty and dry; you’re my shelter in the tempest, my fort of protection. I just want to be able to give you my all, effortlessly, of course. I don’t even want to have to work on it because I just want it to come naturally. Eventually, Love will raise you up and I won’t let you fall. I just want to be able to love you unconditionally and cherish you for who you are inside and out.
Please, have hope. Don’t give up & remain positive.