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I hope everyone can feel the sarcasm seething from me.   As well as the anger. 

So, my first year of college has come and gone.

I have absolutely no idea what to think of it.  I had so many ups and so many downs.  It’s actually really weird to think of how different I am and how different my relationships are after a single year.  I remember thinking of what my first year would be like at U of A and I must say I was completely wrong about everything.  I experienced dorm life, meal plans, college courses, ignorant professors, technical difficulties, emotion breakdowns, changing majors, life plan alterations and, lest we forget, new friendships and losing old ones.  

I discovered that sleep is really the best drug and sometimes it can heal all wounds, 8am classes are made by the devil himself, chemistry is the worst subject alive, Greek is probably the hardest language to learn, and that it’s okay to fail something because you do actually learn from it.   I came from a family where failing was never an option and in college when I actually did fail at something I wasn’t devastated, sure I was a bit disappointed in myself but, it realized it wasn’t the end of the universe if I didn’t succeed at this particular item.  I don’t recommend failing at anything to anyone; I do recommend failing at least once in life so that you understand how to pick yourself back up off of the ground, brush it off, and continue walking.   

I found a group of people that are the most crazy, scary, funny, mean, caring and loving people around.  They accepted me into their group and I am forever thankful because without them I would have no friends and absolutely no positive memories from this year. These five people that I spent most of my time with accepted me and loved me from day one.  One of them is even my roommate next year.  I also love that with these five people I became such a large part of their group that I cannot imagine my life without them.  Over the course of about six weeks they became my best friends.  I could not ask for better people. 

I now know exactly what I want to do with my life.  I change my undergraduate major from biology to ecology and evolutionary biology.  Not a large change, but enough of a change to deem significant.  I wish I didn’t want to be a marine biologist so much, simply because I would love to be done with school in four years instead of eight. I just dread the amount of debt that I will acquire over the years and I completely hate the idea of paying it back.  I will never understand why school is so expensive or why my tuition will probably increase while i am attending school.  

I know this was a super long rant but I realized I hadn’t blogged for so long the tI felt the need to do so.  I apologize in advance for my grammar errors.  More posts like this to come later in the summer, most likely tomorrow.  Until then, have a lovely weekend!