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So much happened this year. Good and bad. Some things I would change but the year is over and I can kind of forget about it. I’ve been through a lot and brought people in my life to worry about me more. This year I felt that I hit a low that I never hit before. I got to the part of my life that I never knew I could ever be. I didn’t want to go out, I hated everything and it affected my friends and my family. when my mom found out that I need to go to counseling and be put on medication, she started to cry and that was the worst thing ever. I never wanted to make my mom cry. She was there for me, and even thought she really pushed my buttons I do love her.

My dad, I had a really weird relationship with him. I really thought he was just the man that supported my family. He was never here. 13 years of my life, he was here once a year. I was young, I didn’t understand. I finally started understanding him when I turned 18, I felt like I was more trusted in my family. I can hold a conversation with my dad now before it was just “yeah” or “okay”.

The same thing happened with my sister, I guess after the year she got married, things were a bit different. Our parents wanted her and I to talk more. I didn’t want to because since we were a big gap difference of 10 years she suddenly wanted us to be close. Fuck no. I thought it was stupid. We had one really good talk when she was pregnant, we cried and talked for hours. We aren’t super close now, but it’s good enough.

I graduated this year and oh thank god that I am out of there. High school was full of drama and I was disgusted by it. Rumors here and there which were not necessary. I’m just glad I was done with it. University was a big change for me, I was worried if I was going to lose connections with the people I’ve known. I was worried that I would not meet anyone new and they would think I was weird. Everyone I’ve met was really nice, I’ve gotten to get along with a number of people.

The thing I cherish as much as my family are my friendships with my best friends. Taylor, my best friend of many years and counting will forever be the person who will be stuck in my life. One of the only people I feel comfortable with. She is the hyper and energetic being that really keeps my emotions from going crazy. I love her to death and she can still kick my ass at Halo lol

Erin has been there for me as well, I don’t talk to her everyday or anything but I know I can trust her. She’s the one that I randomly talk to about a ton of stuff and I adore her.I wish to talk to her more but her and I are busy… and only if she answer my texts

I was able to keep in touch with an old friend from middle school. Rio, her and I have been friends for a long time, it’s hard to keep in touch but whenever we meet up we talk about everything. She is crazy happy all the time. She is very religious and has this plan already in her mind. I adore her because she’s just so happy all the time.

I now question the people in my life and all my good friends are the happiest people EVER. lol So strange.

Caroline is the first person that I’ve became friends with at UTM. lol we have silly conversations and listen to lights. I’m glad at met her

I was still very happy to get along with people on KHV, and the people I’ve known since I’ve joined the site.

George is pretty much one of the best people I’ve ever had the pleasure of being friends with for so long. He and I went through the same shit at the same time so he and I would talk with each other and tried to get through our problems together. We knew we had each other to count on. Plus, I also really missed him in my life. We were both busy with school that we sometimes weren’t on at the same time. I’m glad that now we talk more and even text (thank god for iphones). He is one of the longest friends I’ve ever known. I just love him too. :)

Bianca, she is the one I can really count on, she knows most of what happens with people online. We have really fun convos together and on skype. She’s just awesome. I wish to see her one day.

Jerome, holy fuck Jerome. haha He and I sometimes have the weirdest friendships ever. Sometimes we can not talk for like weeks but when we talk we are weird together. He’s always been there, we’ve had fights and issues but someone we look past them and become good friends. Now that I have my license.. he’s the first to visit

Ever since becoming staff on KHV, I’ve grown connections with the people on there. I’ve named them my second family. All the people there I love to talk to and they are there for me. I was having problems and some have told me that they would be there for me. I’ve grown better friendships with them.

Alex, has become a great friend to talk to. We email from time to time even though we are both on msn. We do it because we are awesome like that. I hope to talk to him more in my life.

Jad, my Arabic French man. He’s like an older brother to me. though we act like kids and we want to take KHV for ourselves and be king and queen.

Cass (Misty), she’s probably the most wonderful friend to have on KHV. She doesn’t judge and she has awesome advice. <3

I really do wish to talk to people on staff more like Chev, Mel and Lexi. Hopefully in the new year it would be better. though I have no idea how my paranoia of people hating me will hold up because I still do think that.

so many people I’ve met and kept talking to. Lydia and Sarah have been my Assassins forever. Our love for the game keeps us in line. We be too silly together

New people like Ty and Callum have made me understand what kind of person I’ve become. I know I’ve changed but they made me realize that I’ve changed to be a good person.

Nate and Cass, the two older people that I have kept in my life. They are my older brother and sister. It’s nice to have people like them to harass. Especially Nate, because Cass and I can punch him. they are the mature side of me but can be immature at the same time <3

kevin ho, you’re a whore. :D who likes kingdom hearts so I forgive you for that. Enjoy the Yaoi on the KH tag. We have random conversations but it’s all fun.

Final Notes

I thank everyone who has touched part of my life and have touched me inappropriately. ;)  There have been good times and bad times. Just thanks for being there.