had my first major holy shit i’m graduating college in a year / what the fuck kinda job can an ethnic studies major get / most of my ethnic studies alumni friends are broke and not happy / i spent the last 3 years getting good at writing and performing things and putting on events / none of those things = a stable income / i should have majored in something “practical” / america has one of the highest rates of adult children living with their parents because there are no damn jobs / there are no damn jobs / i sometimes feel like i’ve accomplished nothing by my own merit / fear / i have had the privilege of being incredibly stable my whole life, and the promise of uncertainty and instability and the unknown are so so scary

1. it is a privilege to be having this dilemma cuz i got a college education. i cannot begin to understand the enormous privileges and implications weighted in that

2. i do not regret what i studied or what i did or who i met in college, at all

3. i would like it very much if i can just make money to support myself, compromise as few of my values as possible, get to do art on the side, and get to spend some time with the yoots. oh and like destroy the patriarchy/white supremacy/capitalism.