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-I have this really difficult time with Facebook — it’s like, in my life I have often thought I can’t handle that much, most especially knowing lots of things about lots of people I have shared one or another terribly embarrassing experiences with, but some other events in my life have recently have revealed this to be untrue — that perhaps I can handle this and other things — and maybe if I could only find some way to be basely uninterested in the lives of others I could achieve some semblance of normalcy via Facebook, but that still seems contrary to my nature in a deep, deep way, which is why (I am just understanding right now!) I think Facebook is something I’m deeply divided about.  And yet I guess I will go on it again until I can’t handle it again.  So I’m back on!!

-Sometimes I secretly listen to Christian music.  When I was in college, I used to play it in my room to alienate people, but also because I liked it.  I also used to play the Spanish version of Genie in a Bottle, but everyone always liked that.  I also used to use a microwave.  I also think there was a time circa 2005 when you could go on the other countries’ versions of iTunes and buy their music, which is how I started liking Amy Studt, whom I still like, although not as much as a I once did.   

-Recently I have been talking a lot about my mother to JE, and it’s like I can’t stop, I can’t stop trying to understand why things are the way they are, and why they are not a different way, and why I never touch things or why the fucking termite infestation in our apartment doesn’t bother me the way it appears to bother other people.  And I think it is because we used to get ants in my house when I was growing up, and they would crawl into everything — the flour, the cereal — but my mother never got hysterical or annoyed, and if ever I expressed distaste she would say something like “it’s just a little extra protein.”

-Proteins are not alive, but they are the only organism that gives rise to disease in the three basic modes: accidental, infective and genetic.  I think.  I read that in a book.

-My breasts are bigger than they used to be before I started eating again, and I think something in my life must be different, because I do not anymore see this as a failing.    

…just because it is possible to paint your fingernails like General Mills’ Lucky Charms or an old school Gameboy, is it not stupid?  I am all for nail art generally, but because such designs are rarely rendered with the kind of finesse I would hope for, the execution of them seems…less than focused.  

We are watching Angels in America and I am always reminded how much of my mindset was wrought in that womb.  Maybe it made me a good writer of generally cosmic things?  If I am, which is entirely debatable.  What interests me I think is mostly celestial.  Last night I drank at a converted funeral home and I was happy I am not dead yet.

•     HBO’s Girls

•     Fifty Shades of Grey

•     The Facebook IPO

Dear, dear, Lars Von Trier
you and I should have a beer, you know
me. When I was

nine, I thought peanut
butter was the coolest;
What a fucking idiot

I was, huh?

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